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I still love/hate Garett schaefer, I'm moving in with my relatives, I don't care about my weight, or drugs, or studying, or living. I have no default emotion. I know this will pass, it always does, its just a question of when. Depression is a bitch. It ruins my ultimate plateaus and lies in bed with me, sits on my neck while I drag my nasty body ( Read more... ) -
beauty, crack up, sorry......
I want to be alone. Fisher price syndrome. I want to sit alone in my stuffy fucking room with its five hundred curtains blocking out the world, and just talk to myself. Last night I actually packed my bags to catch the first train to the beach, so I could just spin around in the water and let my eyeliner run. Then I remembered I have no money.
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boring...but satisfactory....
I've watched the same sad movie at the same time in the morning for the last three days, and it always makes me cry uncontrollably, but I love it and I think I'll keep watching it until I stop crying from watching it. Thats when I'll know that its not having the same effect on me anymore.
I've been studying online everyday. And I've made a five ( Read more... ) -
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Things got weird last night. I have the pictures to prove it ( Read more... ) -
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It’s the drug that’s addicting. But it’s why you start doing it in the first place that’s interesting. A lot of it was being a child actor; I learned to suppress feelings.” When asked what she does now with those feelings, she said, “I have an hour and a half of performing every night and improvising. If there’s a rafter, I can climb right on.” -
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I just researched the side effects of all the medications and vitamins I've been taken and this could be whats caused my stomach pain all along, and its just now hit me ( Read more... ) -
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oh and today, I asked my boyfriend to find me heroin.
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we're all gonna die, but I INTEND TO DESERVE IT!
I couldn't sleep all night due to intense pain from my ulcer.
haha I mean, also because I TOOK TOO MANY PILLS AGAIN!
I made a bunch of manic lists in my head though, of what I need to do.
Its 8 am and I still haven't slept, and I'm on around 8 klonopins.
But YESTERDAY I TOOK AROUND TWENTY DEXIES!
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I will never get sick of travelling, which is why being stuck in this town with only a few dim hopes to cling to, is fucking drivig me up the wall ( Read more... ) -
this is unbelieveble
http://theskinnywebsite.com/site/
I'm going on the brat diet. for my peptic ulcer.
bannanas, rice, apples, and toast.
today I did the carmen electra workout in my stripper heels. I think I'm gonna go back to dancing, but not yet.