can someone just make me feel better right now
and just make me stop thinking about stupid people
and the stupid things that they do
and say
and omg
i dont like this
help me
tell me not to worry
or not be scared
and more than just telling me
make me believe you.

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okay thats all.

thanks.

dammit.

i did it again

lost my entry.

and it always happens when i have all my good thoughts out.

omg.

how do i get it back.

jesus.

i just spent this time writing an lj entry....about the new school year and seeing ppl...and then not seeing ppl....and it went away!!!

Fuckin A

dammmmit.

that makes me angryyyy.

this is my hundredth entry btw.

well the other one was supposed to be.

gawd.

thats so aggravating.

apologies are nice. sometimes you expect them, sometimes they come out of nowhere.
they throw me for a loop when i dont know exactly what the apology is for.
"i'm sorry."
"for what?" i ask. 
"things. im stupid a lot of the time" he says.
"alright. well its okay.   and your not stupid" i say.

i accepted an apology for something that im not even sure of.

i ( Read more... )

so i went to miss claires house today for a bit, it was quite a good time.
and plus i went shopping before that and got some good new clothes and thats always a good thing.
but yeahh at claires we played bop-it! haha and we were going for a hella long time, then i messed it up. oh well.

and then we whipped out some paper and played good old MASH!!
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so myspace hasnt been working and its so pathetic how dependant i am on it. like its bad ( Read more... )

god

the future 
is such a scary thing

haha.

i laugh at my past. and how ridiculous i was.  like with casey specifically.
and how i handled that whole situation.
and how it strained me so much.
and how i even let it go on for so long
and yeah.
hahah
i think its funny now
and so ridiculous.
i was so dumb.
like for seriously.

it is what it is...

nothing comes easy.

how the hell am i going to deal with this now?

for seriously.

sometimes its so funny to think about the past.
and all that has happened. 
or not.
or think of where thats gotten you 
now.

or just memories.

memories that
you want to hold on to.  
or memories youd rather forget.

sometimes i think i about something thats happened before.
things...
the past...
sometimes
makes me 
laugh, 
makes me cry, 
makes me cringe, 
makes me ( Read more... )