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Another instnace of "Not the best timing, but it's happening"
So, I feel like crap. THANKS JULEE. I have barely a voice, and just feel like shit. But, a friend needs to keep busy today and needed a pack of cigs and asked if I had any house work to be done. LMAO yeah I got tons. HEY.... So.. what's going on? I am getting the garage cleaned up, organized into a bedroom today. SO tonight, I hope to have my ( Read more... ) -
Opening my journal
SO it's not something I've really thought about. Opening my LJ to anyone but Maggi, and a select few others whom have known me, my life style, and pretty much everything else to go along with my crazy. But to have someone come in, and read my most personal thoughts, is really unnerving. I understand the purpose of it, it's like a complete trust ( Read more... ) -
Just a bad mood
Last few days have been horrible. Finding my father is dying of Cancer; has been devastating to say the least and I didn't realize my mental state until today; when I wanted to kick throw scream and break things. Yet I Just sat here, because it was the best option to not do anything I may regret. Im so angry at things I cant control, I'm so ( Read more... ) -
Letting go of an old friend.
My body has told me it really is time to let go of an old friend. Flour products I really will miss you. the time I spent not eating you and having a normal tummy vs. now where I've been eating you; is just night and day. So tomorrow going back to no flour products and no soda. :: eats antacids ( Read more... ) -
I've gotten more out emotionally
I've gotten more out emotionally today, and totally by unexpected conversation than I have in the last year I believe. It was refreshing, and I needed it, even if I didn't realize I did. I made decisions today, that I didn't realize I had already made; I Just had not said them out loud yet. I've let go of things, and stood on my own two feet; ( Read more... ) -
Feeling a bit more... at home. For the time being.
My room mates are moved out. Their coming Tuesday to clean their mess up; and it'll all be just a memory. I am very much glad to have my house back. I have a lot to do before the holidays. Like organizing the garage shelves, and turning the garage into a guest bedroom. Also, getting the house nice and 'homely' looking before Steve's dad ( Read more... ) -
So I can't adhere to a schedule..but I like to do lists...
So I got to thinking tonight. I've came a long ways in so many aspects of my life. But I still can't adhere to schedules like, time ways. Lets face it, I will probably be one of those people literally late to my own funeral. With this being said, I realized, I can stick to 'to do lists'. So I am going to start making 'to do lists' to complete ( Read more... ) -
Not going to let one incident effect today.
I am really working hard at not letting little things ruin my days. I have a really hard problem with little things controlling my moods. Like something not going my way, then the rest of my day is ruined, and I say fuck it, and then just shit happens and it's all down hill. Like today was going great. I got up, started my meds again, some new ( Read more... ) -
Where I am
So...I thought I was going to kill over lungs being impinged upon by ribs, and I went from 293 to 268 currently after being off HCG after an allergic reaction Im sitting at 271. So...Im an emotional mess. I go back to shirnk soon, which is good. Im not sure what stopped working. or what exactly is happening with my self in there. but it's ( Read more... ) -
Day 30
I did absolutely jack shit today. Oh Im sorry I cleaned the bathroom, and I made dinner. Does that count for anything? I made hamburgers in a pan, iwth 96/4 lean ground beef, romaine lettuce, onions and I had made cloud bread the day before, so used that for buns. It was really really yummy; even the boys liked it. I can forsee making that alot ( Read more... )