I'm leaving at 4 in the morning. Not that I don't believe it or anthing, but, heals with the power of god? we'll see.

okay, my pissed off stage is over, for now anyway. now that i'm back to normal i think that my routine should start getting back to normal too. hint hint.

FIRST OF ALL YOU CAN'T ARGUE WITH ME ABOUT GOD, THERE IS NO GOD! YOU HAVN'T SEEN ALL THE 2,3,4 YEAR OLDS THAT I'VE SEEN WITH CANCER. THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT THEY HAVE A TERMINAL ILLNESS, TO THEM IT'S NORMAL TO HAVE AN I.V. IN THEM ALL THE TIME AND TO TAKE DOZENS OF PILLS TO STAY ALIVE ANOTHER COUPLE MONTHS. TELL ME WHAT A CHILD COULD POSSIBLY BE ( Read more... )

I DON'T TALK ABOUT IT , BUT THE THOUGHT THAT I'M GOING TO DIE FROM THIS FUCKING CANCER CROSSES MY MIND HUNDREDS OF TIMES, OVER AND OVER. ALONG WITH THE THOUGHTS THAT I'LL NEVER GET MARRIED OR HAVE KIDS OR HAVE A HOME. THIS ISN'T ME BEING PESSIMISTIC, THIS IS ME BEING A REALIST AND THIS IS WHAT GOES THROUGH MY HEAD EVERY-FUCKING-DAY. SO WHEN ANYONE ( Read more... )

and then sent me to a different doctor who would tell me that i needed another operation. and when he pointed to the spot where the tumor was, he made a small pistol out of his fingers and said, "right there." maybe he should've used a real gun ( Read more... )

seriously, i must have some weird curse taped on my ass because nothing wants to get better. not my family, my, friends, my health, or even my damn health. really this is just prolonging a bad life, they should just let me die already.

i'm out of comments dipped in wit and sprinkled with technique. my magic's gone, sorry. just move on to the next persons life you want to immitate.

by the way, the idiot who stole my personality and acts like freshman version of me, i hope you kill yourself =]. i mean you did have all those self esteem issues. good luck pumpkin.

mom. roma. fighting.vladi. upset. me. hiding

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