So, lately i've been thinking. I have got to have THE coolest girlfriend ever. Cause, first of all, she can act so stupid around me and KNOW i still love her. And vise versa. I can act INCERDIBLY stupid around her and know she still loves me. Second, she's funny as Hell. Like, she can crack a joke and i'll be laughing for hours about it. ( Read more... )

Yo, I quit. So last night i went to holly's...tried going home...got scared...slept in her car. Today i wanted to go over and just sleep and she said that'd be rude. Understandable. Then she kept saying i treat her bad. Erm...i just drove 3 1/2 hours to see you on my day off. And i treat you like a princess. Iunno, i guess things i say when ( Read more... )

Wow. So much to say. Well let me run through the past couple of days ( Read more... )

Ah hah. So i got a friend to take me and accompany me to the show. Laura Chappell. Well Holly probably won't be happy with this one, but i hope she understands that we're just friends and it's a ride to the show. So i have to go meet Laura's dad and i'm washing my clothes right now. I'm kind of sitting here in my towel, i don't feel very ( Read more... )

Yo. Well I'm at Holly's and she's packing to go to Ocean City. :( Boo hoo. I'm a cry baby.

So last night I stayed up till like 4 with Jesse...he spent the night. We tortured a frog. lol Played some THPS UNDERGROUND Oh we're cool. :) Then today Holly texted me and it woke me up...it said "wake up." :) I love it. So i talked to her online and ( Read more... )

So here's another one of those greater-than-pathetic entries. Heh. Well. I wake up this morning thinking i have work. I wasn't sure so i check the schedule i wrote down. Only then did i realize that I hadn't written down dates. So i had to go check work. Well about half way down my street i decide to pick up Holly. So i get her and we go to ( Read more... )

Well yesterday i met Holly...and tried and tried and tried. Then i ended up walking back home. :( So i talked to her online and she kept yelling at me...saying to forget her. So i blocked her. Then i went and got gas, then to Kelo's to get my phone and knife. Then i came back home to drop off the gas card. Then i went to work. After work ( Read more... )

This sucks. Everything sucks. I wish things were like they used to be. I wish Holly still loved me. I wish we were still together. I wish i wasn't such an asshole. I wish i wasn't so stupid at times. I wish i wasn't me. :(

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Here's an update. Since I promised Holly i'd update everyday. Even though i break promises. And I lie. And I cheat. I fucked up guys. I fucked up pretty bad. Holly was awesome. She's funny, logical, cute, fun. Everything I want. And i threw it all away. For something stupid. Something so stupid I don't deserve to be BREATHING right now ( Read more... )

Well Holly's going to the mall with Bethany, i was pissed cause it seems like Bethany is taking her away from me. I guess i take her away from Bethany. But she DOES get to see her all day tomorrow if she wants...and she gets to see her at the beach. But i can't interfere with two best friends...no matter how sad i get. And plus, i stay happy, ( Read more... )