ok.
lets see.
i have anger management issues.
the person i love has been mean to me.
im not sure what to do.
WTF.im so confused.

I wish I could I could have quit you. I wish I never missed you, And told you that I loved you, every time I Fucked you. The future that we both drew, and all the shit we've been through. Obssed with the thought of you ( Read more... )

wow.
i truely am i fuck up.
arent i?
i want things so bad.
once i get them i push it away.
then i want it.
and push it away.
just to see how far it goes.
god i hate myself.
ugh.

='[

ryan has jon over.
jon is fucking annoying at times.
expeccially right now.
ryan always gets mad when im on the computer.
or playing a game.
when we are on the phone.
hes playing a game.
and has someone over.
i dont want to talk to him right now.
im very pissed off.
hes such a hypocrite.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

another day at school.
nothing interesting.
listening to amzing music.
such as cradle of filth.
nymphetamine.
i like saying that word.
but yah.
ugh.
life sucks.
im so confused about feelings.
ive basically decided something just noow.
ill make my own decisions.
if you dont like them.
FUCK YOU.

there isnt really anything to say.
blaine refuses to talk to me.
let alone make eye contact.
makes me sad.
='[
but ill deal.
im getting along with ryan.
we might get back together.
people will probably get mad at me.
but its my life.
so.
FUCK YOU!
but anyway.
us getting along makes me mucho happy ( Read more... )

IM SORRY.
i dont like you.
its not my fault.
you make me seem like a bad person.
your just coming on too strong.
and i like someone else.
and im in love with someone.
i cant just throw those feelings away.
im sorry if i lead you on.
which i know i didnt.
but if you felt that way.
im sorry.

today was interesting ( Read more... )

today consisted of ( Read more... )

the wierd thing is.
everytime i read whatyou wrote.
it gives me butterflies.
but i havent known you long enough.
im confused.
i might like you.
but im not sure.
dont count on anything.
only cause next year.
oh yah.
you have beautiful eyes.

p.s.
this will be my last entry for today.
i think.
unless you talk to me.

dear boy that hurts me,you know what ive noticed ( Read more... )