so i am work right now...i am hungry. i woke up too late to eat breakfast...well, i woke up...but then i just couldn't resist falling back asleep with lovely benjamin ( Read more... )

oi..benjamin....i am at his house right now....he is with his dad...went with him early in the morning...i am gonna meet his dad today...he has a present for me...i was cleaning...whenever i come over here i clean the bathroom and kitchen..i just can't help it...ben is messy. but oi...here we go again....

I CAN BUY A BABY BUFFALO FOR ONLY $500 ( Read more... )

i need money...

and a hug.

I'm feeling very young today...I am at the public library...there are a lot of homeless people here. I have my hair tied in a pony tail (my straightening iron broke, so i have a fro) and my cow rain boots on...oh and my backpack. I feel like I am 10.

i still hurt ( Read more... )

everything is spinning and i am finding it hard to be with someone else....this fucking sucks...

i feel like i am going to do something bad tonight....

boy am i a fool...ben has been seeing another girl...he said he loves her and not me...well, he didn't say that to me...but he said that to her....all the while telling me that he doesn't want to be with anyone else...so he was just using me for when she wasn't around....ahahhaahahaa....oh god.

i bought myself a hyacinth last night...it is a potted one so it won't die for a long, long time. i like living plants better, so i am pleased. it smells so wonderful, i kept smelling it on my way home on the bus. as soon as i got home, ben called me asking me to hang out with him. so we did...he still had the rental car. having a car is nice ( Read more... )