i'm in a stage of confusion. i don't know what i want. i know what i need, but it's hard to make the best decision ALL the time. this isn't pointed towards a certain subject in my life it's just based in general. i just feel like i don't know what to do anymore, like i don't know where i want to be or how i want to get there. i miss my old life ( Read more... )

I miss home and it's only been 2 days... well maybe not home it's self but i miss the people i want to be with right now! i swear as soon as i get home as soon as i see matthew i'm hugging him and never letting him go!! as mush as i don't want to admit it i MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!!!! Like don't get me wrong i love it here and making new friends is ( Read more... )

Today was my first day all on my own... i think i did pretty well. I made my first on my own trip to Wally World it was very quixotic but i survived. I had a good night out with some of the girls... and yes i do get along with my roommate and no she's not a lesbian. I miss everyone. "I miss the ducks."

Tonight i think is the saddest i've been in a long time, besides when Lindsay left on Wednesday. I'm so fucking emotional lately! What the FUCK is wrong with me!?!? I hate crying, i don't do it! I have cryed and come closer to tears more in the past 2 days then i have in the past 2 years. I'm tired, angry, sad, and upset. I'm heading to bed maybe i ( Read more... )

So it FINALLY worked! well almost anyways... we finally got the group together and partied before everyone went their seperate ways. I'll finish this later!

It's starting to sink in. I'm slowly coming to the realization that next week my group of friends will never be the same. It scares me, honeslty it does. Everything just started to get real good. What the hell. On a better note yesterday was a REALLY good day. Very calm and relaxing. I hungout with Matthew all day we had lunch, rented a movie, and ( Read more... )

Yesterday was alot of fun. I worked till 12:30 a new record and then i went to go hangout with Matthew and we had a good time just being with each other. After that i went to go see STEP UP with my Mom, Rachel, Lindsay, and Amanda. It was an amazing movie to me... it made me realize how much i miss dancing!! I MISS IT SOOO MUCH!!! After the movie ( Read more... )

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i don't know what i want to say all i know is that i'm FRUSTERATED!! I want RESPECT... and UNDERSTANDING from everyone!! The phone will ring tonight but no calls will be answered. i need a breather from LIFE!

So i'm offically a person lol. I had a great birthday, thank you! Life's pretty good right now... i have awesome friends, i have an awesome boyfriend, things with the family are going pretty good... i honeslty as much as i do, i can't complain. I learn something new daily, weather by random or by choice but either way i love it! My life is filled ( Read more... )

Why i'm super stoked about friday:

-Lincoln will be in town
-i'll be 18!!
-getting my belly button pierced!
-get to see alot of my friends before i leave.
-going to tan legally.
-i'm finally part of the group (not holding anyone back)
-i'm not holding anyone back anymore!