was awesome. i finally got to hang out with russell. i missed him so much! we went to dennys....and the oreo sunday is tooooo chocolately. i recommend not getting it unless you are a chocolate whore. lol. anyways....off the subject. it was totally random and the last thing i thought i would end my night with would be huggin him goodbye. just ( Read more... )

So...I've been here in oklahoma about a month and a half now. at first i hated it. i hated it to hell. i didnt want to be here, i didnt want to live here, i had regretted ever coming or agreeing to come. buuuuut now ive put a couple of things into perspective. when i started getting super stressed out about this place, i had become selfish and ( Read more... )

you are rediculous.

and so freakin difficult.

im about to give up...for the millionth time.

you say you'll change, but you never do.

you dont even try.

good god i havent written in here in so long. i havent even been on this site in forever, well except for last night when i came to write a little something and just ended up reading all of my old entrees. its crazy how different i am now than how i was when i wrote those these last 3 years. been through sooooo much. its crazy. the only people on ( Read more... )

do you remember the days ( Read more... )

I hate boys.

especially ones that say i love you....

then turn their back on you.

what a wonderful fucking rainy day.

What Would You Do If ( Read more... )

woot! its 2005! i cant wait to read up on what everyone else did! i had a ton of fun though. i'd have to say this was probably the best new years i ever had.

i didnt see tonight coming at all. it was about the last thing i expected.

but it totally rocked. wow.

enough said.

wouldnt it be nice to know how your future will turn out? and even better- if you had the power to change it to how you wanted? its strange looking back now on how things used to be. everything seemed so much easier, friendships were so much stronger, and the drama everyone went through that seemed soo horrible then is just funny now ( Read more... )

last night i was totally someone else. after sitting around at home forever, i went to a party around 10. yes-me. jen went to a party. holy crap. not only did she go to a party, but she drank too! jen? drink? NEVER! not only did i drink, but i played drinking games-which i kicked butt at...some of the time, and managed to stumble my way around to ( Read more... )