this is officially my old journal im making a new 1 for brandon... love ya's babe ! much love peace !

the last of me,
ali

lifes gay and i love ryan and i just think god isnt real cuz if he was he would answer my prayers 2 b with him but he doesnt so life just sux once more but im keeping my self occupied even tho a certain persen is alwayz on my mind.... oh well so im ganna go cuz i dont kno what 2 write cuz all i can think about is ryan... that sux cuz all i think of ( Read more... )

im bored as hell im stuck inside cuz im grounded and my 1 hope 2 get out is lost cuz well, i dont wanna get into it so basically it just is....im talking 2 steve, he isnt being gay ne more cuz i talked 2 him about sum stuff that was going on and ummm i dont really have much 2 say i got mad as hell b 4 and threw 3 shoes at my wall and 2 of 3 made ( Read more... )

01. who are you, what's our relationship ( Read more... )

holy crap i just wanna die, everything is screwed up and life is gay... bak 2 my old self, bye ( Read more... )

holy crap, my mom just brought me out 2 get my belly pierced it was wierd i walked in the house from skewl and shes just like hey want ur belly button pierced i was like uhhh sure lol so we went and then i pikked out my ring and i did it... it looks ok except for the fact that i think im fat every-1 yells at me wen i say that tho... oh well, it ( Read more... )

home from skewl u wont c me much this week im grounded but i aint ganna b all gay and post it cuz last time i got introuble 4 it but thats not y im grounded umm, i can still use the fone and puter tho so gimmie a call and i'll b here at least till fri thats wen im off punishment and i wont b here ! im ganna get out of the house asap... but ne wayz ( Read more... )

i love ryan parker !!!!! i am talking 2 him, he makes my life !!! ahhhh !!!! i want his sexy body !!!! i wanna go out with him !!! i want him 2 ask me out cuz im scared of rejection and making a fool of my self !!!! ahhhh !!!! he likes me and he should ask me out !!!!

ali

i love ryan with all of my heart !!!

being bored, just went and finished up my b-b shopping for ry c and his mommy, im hyper cuz i cant wait till 2 nite !!! ahh !! party 2 night !!!! yay ! god its ganna b so much fun ! or atleast i hope ! i hope he likes his presents id say what i got him but i dont want him 2 find out so i will post it to marrro or sumthing so its after he gets it ( Read more... )

justyne is here... we are laffing at steve cuz hes begging us 2 chill wit him, personally im scared of his dirty ness but justyne doesnt kno him and thinks hes funny cuz of the stuff he writes on the computer but she has yet 2 learn about the real "steven colella" yuck ! lol but we need sumthing 2 do cuz i dont like steve and im not ganna hang out ( Read more... )