im in such a good mood its unimaginable... it was relly nice hafin people over and just being able to enjoy everyone getting along and laughing and stuff... one of the best parts was this gift i got.. its a songwriters notebook... i had to try so hard not to cry when i got it its the most thoughtful thing ive ever gotten its so hard to explain but ( Read more... )

god i hate cleaning... i like hafing pple here to hang out with.. but my moms insane and thinks that peopl actuly care how clean the goddamn house is so i haf to kill myself gettin every stupid speck of dust off of everything. its so fucking cold in here... when i have my own apt *hopefully somtime sooooooooon* its gonna be so hot in there so i can ( Read more... )

wow i had no idea that some people (TALKING TO YOU ADIT) had such homicidal feelings for me... if u want to kill someone u shud at least be polite enuf to tell it to their face haha.. anyways so bored but yeah birthday shit tommrow! woot.. hanging out with people with no stress around for once is gonna be fun...

i am a really bad person. just thought i should say that. im so sick of pretending like im not. u know what i hate? when people say 'just be yourself and they'll all love you' BULL FUCKING SHIT... no one wants u to be who you are they want to to be what they need you to be.. i have been calm and controlled and easygoing for the most part all my ( Read more... )

uhhghhgh i feel so gross i was at school for FOURTEEN AND A HALF FUCKING HOURS... crazyness.. i shud totally lose twenty pounds then become a stripper so i can have money so i can move out... all i have to do is grow giant tits over nite haha im crackin up i rellly think im going insane....

wow... i was looking in my aim folder for this convo my friend wanted and i started lookin at all this stuff from one of my exes... all these conversations id saved cus they were so sweet.. i cant believe i actuly dated someone that nice and let them go.. whats wrong with me???? why is it that the only people i ever fall for treat me like shit... ( Read more... )

so frustrated... i have all this energy and i feel like going running but i cant.. i didnt go to school today cus my knee hurt so fucking bad... all i want to do is live like a fuckin normal person but i cant and then everyones all like why arent u happy and its not like i dont want to be thats all i want... getting my parents to do anything is so ( Read more... )

ahhh im in a good mood just thot that was worth recording... i forgot how funny some people are.. i have a fake sex date for saturday ahh im so amused.. anwyas. yeah..

i just figured this all out im a freakin genius muahha.. well not quite if i were id b an A student but still .. according to this shit website if i take my body weight and times it by fifteen i haf the amount of calories needed to keep that weight.. so all i haf to do is eat less than that number of calories and WHALAH (or drum roll? meh whatever ( Read more... )

i think i can add insomnia to my list of weirdnesses.. i cant sleep except in class haha the rest of the time i just wish i was sleeping.. life is so boring im not living im just.. there... i feel totally useless all of the time i dont DO anything ever im just taking up space (and a lot of it) i bet i cudnt find 5 people that would notice if i just ( Read more... )