ok yesterday started my second job not sure if there going to let me stay or how much pay but ya after that i went to a well sorta party just some friends an other people i didnt know ( I just like to say drinking an smokeing are ok in my book)so i show up see my buddies have seen in awhile an were just hanging around an talking then one girls ( Read more... )

i now weigh 270 lbs my goal is to weigh 185 lbs i will update onthe weight loss every other day

i cant right any thing in this dam thing every one reads it ahh whatever

when i see you my heart jumps into my throat i get so nervous i can mot speak i can not otter a word i am so happy i look into your eyes your beauty is overwhelming i try to speak but mothing comes out i want to say i love you and all i want is you i grab you bring you close hold you tight and i kiss you this night is the night that stands out like ( Read more... )

At the step of my grave
you leave these flowers
you say you love me
you say you miss me
I killed my self and you miss me
Why didn’t you love me
when I was at the step of the grave
you leave me flowers
you let your self die
don’t come to me an cry
leave me let me rest

when i sleep at night i think of you when i look in the mirror i slam my fist i can't take this your around me all the time i miss you i love you why did you have to go this evil man why did he take you away wht from this is the end your going to die. you took her away from me you dont deserv to live you raped her you beat her lat at her you ( Read more... )

i have decided to fill my journal up with my book of stuff if michelle still reads this you know what i am talking about its a book fill with poems an every thing i have ever felt sence the 7th grade it will slowly be put on over the next month if any one gives a crap leave a comment these are me deepest thoughts most you would never thing would ( Read more... )

went ot my cousins welcome bakc aprty he just got out of the army its was interesting met some of hhis friend here kool chilled iwht jacuqlyn shes koo she got a little buzzed so did i but ya shit man my mom told me hey tell the story what happend the other day about the thing an i like that not funny ( Read more... )

my parents keep telling me that i am a failer an that i am not going to do anything with my life every one is saying that too my friends my parents my sister every one i hate it but the thing is i know i could do so much better an ya i think i am just going to start using my brain sighs life sucks

lets see what happend today my mother told me she wanted to kill me to day so she could go to jail an not have to deal with her horrible life but hey shit happence but my mom keeps saying she want to leave her misreble life an how much she hates her life i always tell her just fucken leave alread but she never does it us to scare me but not any ( Read more... )