"I never look to the future, it comes soon enough."

So it snowed like 8 inches today in Antigo, which would be sweet if I liked to dki or snowboard, but I don't, so it sucked. Yesterday was totally crap because I had to go have a holiday dinner at my aunt and uncle's house and I was totally depressed and didn't say anything the whole time I was there. I am really ashamed of myself and disappointed ( Read more... )

The long wait is over. With an amazing F in Bertrand's class I have managed to get kicked out of college. What will the future hold for our depressed hero, I have no fucking clue. I will definately work at Copp's until New Years, but after that things are up in the air. I know I will not be trying to get back to Lawrence soon, as I have realized ( Read more... )

Water water everywhere, thats how I feel these days. I am thinking about growing out my beard again, and we all know what that means...

Well, now that I have been kicked out of LU, I figured my lack of classes would free up some time for pointless pursuits such as working, weightlifting, and LJing! hooray! So now the 20 or so friends I had can find out what is happening in my boring excuse for a life from time to time in the frigid north. I do want to say thank you to everyone that ( Read more... )

You know the one. It's where you are lonely, but you don't want satisfaction from physicality, you just want to look into someone's eyes and know that they feel the same indescribable emotions for you that you feel for them. I miss that feeling. I think that life might have been bad at that time, just like recently, but having love makes everything ( Read more... )

When we last found our hero he was struggling with a boring summer, a lackluster gym routine, and no sign of happiness in sight. Well, the boring part subsided for awhile on my usual vacation with the gents to Ohio, and my weightlifting has started getting good again. In my desperate attempt to weigh more than 172 pounds, I now eat 6 meals a day, ( Read more... )

There are few feelings in the world (most x-rated!) that match or are in the league of the feeling I got when I discovered the weight dungeon in my gym today. Dumbbells and mirrors and benches as far as the eye could see. It was like stepping into heaven if heaven were a sweaty, poorly ventilated basement with red neon lighting and hard rock ( Read more... )

So I am dead set on a tattoo for the summer. I have the basic design down; I want a japanese rising sun and a koi fish, somehow incorporated together, into a scene on my left arm, from mid bicep to top of the shoulder. It will be big and beautiful, yet easily concealed by normal short sleeved shirts. I just need to sit down with an artist and ( Read more... )

My life is officially over. I was looking in the mirror today and I found white hair in my beard! For Christ's sake I am only 20. This does not make me a happy camper.