• I love to smile (I only have one dimple).
• I won't hold a grudge but I mat not say exactly what I'm thinking.
• I do not think I'm fat.
• I was born in Montana but I now prefer California.
• I have more guy friends then girl friends.

----R E C A P----

.FRIDAY.

Sunest.

Too much waiting.drinking.walking.forgetting.

-alright-

.SATURDAY.

Had to work early. Puked. Felt like shit all day.

Sat around waiting for my phone to light up.

Nothing.

-not good-

.SUNDAY.

Happy Easter. Low key. Went to the gym.

Waited around. Saw Dan C. Smoked. Bonfire. haha

Saw Alan for a few minutes.

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I left my window open, I want to be cold. I hate the cold.

It's Easter my aunt, uncle, and cousins all went to church...I have lived here for 6 years and they have never gone to church. My sister is still sleeping. I'm isolated with headphones on high in my room. We are watching our friends dog, it's a lab. Her name is, Annie and I want to kill ( Read more... )

HOME. Five days is far too long. Trip was alright. SAD. I had to keep busy or I would start crying. It's weird when I think about how I will NEVER see her again.

Stayed at Gina's house she has four kids. Weston in Seve's age they hang out a lot. Danah is 11 she is a cutie. Kolton is 7ish and is sooo adorable. This morning he was all when you ( Read more... )

Listening to the CD's you made me.

--hating the reason I'm here-dreading tomorrow-holding back tears-missing friends-missing you more-awaiting wednesday--

When I'm here I don't care what I look like; I don't match, my hair is wack, and I have no make-up on. I'm wearing your sweatshirt, I like it.

Getting drunk of ROCKSTARS haha

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It is 12:30am we are leaving for the airport in three and half hours...don't want to go at all. It's going to be depressing but I know I need to go to comfort my family.

I'm going to miss you. (I MISS YOU!)

I get home Wednesday at 5:15pm so hopefully I will be homehome around 7pm

I'll send you a post card... hehe             
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----I am leaving for Montana at 5AM, Saturday. My Great Grandma Darlene's funeral is on Tuesday. I will be returning home around 5PM, Wednesday.----

No Alkaline Trio.

I am being strong because I know she wouldn't have wanted us all stumbling around with tears in our eyes. Tears in the AM and tears in PE...

Thank you Alan Cohen. I'm happy when I' ( Read more... )

She's in heaven.

4-1-04 5:00AM

Staying strong.

I'm so lucky. I knew two of my GREAT grandparents very closely. My great grandpa, Ivan was one of those classic grandpas that slips you cookies right before dinner when no one is looking and lets you sit on his lap till you fall asleep. He was so funny I remember him vividly sitting in his recliner in the front room watching TV and hollering for my ( Read more... )

My great grandma is worse. My papa said NOW is the only time we have if we want to 'talk' to her. Looks like I may be going to Montana, Sunday....deciding tomorrow.

I want to scream out all the emotions you have me feeling.

I want you. Whisper in my ear. Take my hand in yours. Hold me in your arms. Kiss me. Promise.

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