Comments | ilovewicked2004: Uhh

ilovewicked2004

Uhh

Mar 21, 2005 19:43

I need to make a happy post, because, as always, I'm pissed at my mother. I cannot wait to f-ing get out of this f-ing house.

Things I like:

Daisy, Bailey, and I are Rentheads ..lol

My cat...

New York

Cheno

That there are approximately four months till I get out of this house...

I orded a copy of Rent the book..

My friends..

I dont' know what else ( Read more... )

Comments 18

yourmammy March 22 2005, 01:03:01 UTC

there's a book of rent?

LINDY nobody can be a "good, straight A, Christian fun loving girl who has everything in the world together." it's always a facade. everyone's life is full of mess and poo. everyone has doubts. everyone feels like crap. everyone loses faith in the human race. but that's human. and that other person you described is not. but anyway, it's not bad to want to be that sort of person...you'll just go crazy if you think about it too much. you have to take care of yourself and do what you have to do and somehow out of that you can find that person again.

that isn't really making a whole lot of sense now. i'm not really one to be preaching about how to be that sort of person. but you do curse a lot now and that is just weird. but like you said it's just around me. hmmm.

i think everything is a mess for all of us right now. it's time for us to get out of palatka. and get some more sleep. and a shoulder rub every once and a while.

ilovewicked2004 March 22 2005, 01:16:50 UTC

Well, my cursing is around you and myself.

Yes, Rent has a book.

Thanks.

I don't know what to do.

yourmammy March 23 2005, 02:46:47 UTC

what kind of book? like a novel? comic? script? sheet music?

ilovewicked2004 March 23 2005, 16:56:19 UTC

It's a book I think about how the musical came to be. It has stuff about Jonathan Larson's life in it, and it includes the entire libretto from the musical, and pictures from it.

eiennoyasumi March 22 2005, 01:39:23 UTC

Lindy-- almost no one feels "tugged on" constantly, not at our age, not here. Does my father tug on me constantly? Do my dreams? Does anything I love and revere? It's always there and always with me but I am not attending to it at every moment. Human brains don't do that. If your faith stops mattering when you leave church, don't blame yourself, figure out why and do something about it. Talk to God about it, because 1) he knows how you feel, 2) he already knows about it anyway, and 3) that's what you're sposta be doing anyway. And you're probably not being challenged about it-- anything feels commonplace if nothing pokes it up ( ... )

ilovewicked2004 March 22 2005, 01:54:00 UTC

Omgosh guys. I've been holding this in for so long, and I've told Caitlin a little bit about it, but not much. I wanted Carmen to come over one night and stay the night so I could tell her, but that didn't happen ( ... )

eiennoyasumi March 22 2005, 02:10:34 UTC

oh Lindy you KNOW how much I like talking about things! If you need to, talk to me. It would like make my day.

I understand how it is for God to get left in the dust-- because stuff keeps HAPPENING, it's like OMGOMGOMGTHINGS TO DO oh, hi God THINGS TO DOOOOOOOOOOOO BUSY

and if he's not there saying HELLO HELLO PAY ME ATTENTION, you don't.

he knows that. He won't be angry. Have a conversation. You'll feel better, I swear-- last semester there were about two months where I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me. I mean everything was fine, no one noticed anything, but I saw myself doing and saying things I didn't like, and I felt just... weird, wrong, not like me, changed but not for the better, y'know? And one night I was so frustrated I was just liked "GOD, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? I wasn't this way earlier ( ... )

im about to say a whole bunch of nothin chanteuse217 March 22 2005, 03:10:26 UTC

funny u should say this ( ... )

Re: im about to say a whole bunch of nothin yourmammy March 23 2005, 02:45:35 UTC

i love carmen. and carmen always looks tired and sad and incomplete these days. and she has a questionable-looking spout to boot. and if i can give carmen a 2 instead of a 0 on her homework quiz and it makes her feel better that is good.

Re: im about to say a whole bunch of nothin ilovewicked2004 March 23 2005, 03:45:23 UTC

yo that 2 goes for me as well. lol
help a sister out with some calc

Re: im about to say a whole bunch of nothin chanteuse217 March 25 2005, 17:02:41 UTC

if you only knew how much those 2s meant to me... lol seriously.. (((((hugs))))) u make a WORLD of a difference, daisy. thankyou so much.. i dunno how i could repay u.. and i love u too.

yourmammy March 23 2005, 01:32:54 UTC

maybe you shouldn't be hanging out with me as often or something...i dunno. religion is at the bottom of my list of worries so i can imagine it is easy for me to distract you from it. i really can't help you with your faith - i have so little myself.