so i wish our shower wasnt so cold. cause our room is freezing. and ordinarily i would just go take a hot shower. but it's too cold. damn it. i hope next weekend goes according to how im planning it. cause i dont need another disappointment in my life right now. i got a zero in algebra cause i forgot to do my homework. whoops. oh well. im still ( Read more... )

i'm depressed. i don't see my life going anywhere. i feel like i reached my peak when i was salutatorian and now i'm going downhill. i don't know i just feel like i'm not a good enough writer to be a writer, and i'm not a people person so i can pretty much eliminate any job where i have to talk to people. i dunno. i'd like to major in political ( Read more... )

so far.. i'm alright. i'm lonely and i've been having bad mood swings. and i'm pretty sad. and stressed out. but i'm okay. i dunno i feel like i can't let anybody know how i feel. you're supposed to have fun in college. so far i'm not impressed. i haven't met anybody new. and all the white people here look the same. but i'll be okay.

so here's what's going on in my life...
*i'm done packing.
*i have a huge headache.
*i keep thinking of stuff i forgot to pack.
*im so scared.
*i hope i can download the cool aim on my new computer.
*i can't take my speakers. sad face.
*i feel like i packed way too much.
*i'm going to miss everybody.
*and i miss you so much...

i don't even know where to start. i have so much stuff going through my mind. i don't even know how i feel. i'm happy, extremely happy... but so sad. i'm nervous and excited. scared of being on my own, but ready to get the fuck out of fayetteville ( Read more... )

It seems like everytime I write on here, it's always really long and gay. and this is going to be another one. because, my entire life feels so surreal right now. like.. when i was in sixth grade... not to be morbid, but i always thought i would die before i turned 18 or something cause i could never picture myself graduating. and here i am. i ( Read more... )

i can't sleep. i have too much on my mind. i was thinking that maybe... it's because i'm afraid that everything will be real. because then that means i can really get hurt. i'm so scared of getting hurt that i barely even hint to how i feel. but this is what i wanted, isn't it? i got it and i should be happy. and honestly, i'm ecstatic and the ( Read more... )

it's terrible when anybody dies.
but it's tragic when a young person dies.

i wish it was my birthday.

it kind of sucks having my room clean cause now i'm bored all day. so i read. and although i enjoy reading, i want to do something else. i have a lot of shit i need to do. i have a dr appointment next wednesday, i have to go to the health department, i have to go to another doctor, ahhhh. and i need to apply for honors still. fuck. im so lazy. i ( Read more... )