im back to being happy ( Read more... )

chad and i are over...eh...deep down, i knew it was going to happen....we just werent made for eachother, as much as i liked to think so ( Read more... )

its time to update...considering my last entry is forever old....lol ( Read more... )

yuppp im on the Vincent road....AGAIN. ugh. i wish i could just not think of this.....i miss him, soo much. but i dont want to....it hurts. i know now what he felt....well, acually i wont ever be able to feel that terrible im sure.....hes never really done anything to horrible to me....but i almost wish he would have....so i could hate him like he ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRISTINA!!!!!!!!!!!!! KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU<3333333

ugh. old entries almost make me want to cry, but at the same time, throw up....
i hate him, its all his fault i am the way i am, ever since we dated at the beginning of the year...i swear, hes the one that fucked my mind up.
i wish i could be normal.

i wish i could still say i love you and smile, feeling amazing, knowing that what i felt was real, and that what you felt was real, you knew i loved you. i wish i could make you forget. forget every once of pain you hold so tight, locked away inside you. i wish i could make you forget what ive done to you, forget the pain i caused you so uncaringly ( Read more... )

how much you take the things you love, for granted. seriously ( Read more... )

ive decided, when im 18, im getting my lip pierced, no the left, and my monroe on the right. i really want it now. like ubber bad, and i cant have it till im 18, gay.i cant wait tho!! yay 18 is going to be like, the best year EVER, cuz i get my pretty piercings and tats!! im excited. oh and guages, did i mention those? omg. ah i cant wait! im like ( Read more... )

yeah. so i had to wake up early this morning, after getting back at 3 in the morning from that stupid mormon trip to help my mommy w/a dumb wedding catering thingy. it sucked, the only up part-i get payed, but idk how much. so it better be a decent amount cuz i gave up my only day off for it ( Read more... )