Tonight was the best fuckin night I've had in a really long time. I went to the Steel train concert with natalie which started out sucking ass cuz this kid Miguel was being a gigantic asshole but then Steeltrain played and they were sooooooo amazing I almost died. So then after Steeltrain we left and were walking to our car when these two college ( Read more... )

bleh I hate awkward situations ( Read more... )

Wow sometimes I hate people. I wonder what it would be like to be completely alone for one day on earth. Would I like it? Maybe not totally alone. I had a dream my dad died last night. Scariest dream of my life even tho I'm not a big fan of him. I woke up crying. It sucked hardcore. I'm really starting to like geometry and callahan. I ( Read more... )

O where o where did my beautiful Christina go ( Read more... )

I'm back in town. This last week has shown me how incredibly naive I was to believe that my dad gave a damn about me. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe it's not. I don't know. He seems to think his only obligation to me is to make sure I don't starve to death while I'm with him. I'm so pissed at myself for defending his position in my life to other ( Read more... )

Merry effing Christmas

If things equal happiness, then I'd be the happiest person in the world

But they don't

And I'm not

Sooo....I'm in Georgia right now. It kinda sucks because I have yet to talk to my dad (his best friend is his cell phone and he uses it 24/7), and I'm not allowed to use AIM or my cell, so I'm completely cut off from everyone. Lj is my only link. I can't wait to come back in 5 days. Merry Christmas everyone!!

It's the last thing I'll ever get, but all i want for Christmas is you

Do you ever feel like you're so messed up that you're afraid to be around people because you're scared you're going to screw them up too? Is being screwed up infectious? How do you fix it? It seems like every time I try, things just get worse.

My hair has been slaughtered, ruined, slain, decimated, maimed, mutilated, mangled....I think I'm going to cry