... i have 60 days clean today. i have a sponsor (who has 23 years clean and is fucking awesome). i'm working the program. my days consist of: wake up. go to work. work 8 hrs. pick up mike. go to an NA meeting. talk to people in NA. go home. read in the basic text. go to bed. ::repeat ( Read more... )

this week has been... horrifying, then eye-opening, then a blessing. mike got into a bad car accident on monday. he was making a left at a busy intersection and i guess he didnt have enough time or the woman coming the other direction didnt slow down or wasn't paying attention... they collided... both cars were totalled. mike wasn't wearing his ( Read more... )

so, today is my birthday. i am officially 20 years old... no longer a teenager, fuckin' A it's about time. and for once i didn't wake up miserable on my birthday. it's funny how much more peaceful i feel these days with the combination of no drugs and my mood stabilizers actually working because there are no drugs to interfere. it's a wonderful ( Read more... )

well everything was going fairly well for me, but surprise... lisa fucked up again. i relapsed. bad. like hardcore. i went on a two week binge in which the out come was absesses and my arm looking requiem style and all of mine and mike's savings evaporated. i really messed up this time. my mom had a feeling i was using and she came down to florida ( Read more... )

so i figured i'd update just to let everyone out there know that i'm still alive and kickin'. i'm in jersey at this moment, but i go back to florida on friday morning. i've been living in palm beach county since i got out of rehab. going to rehab was the best decision i made in my life. i learned so much about myself. i'm clean and happy to be. ( Read more... )

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*EDIT*- entry erased. the one person who was supposed to see it saw it, so whatever, it's gone now.

(actually, i'm in a good mood... i added the "fucking", well, because i like to curse like a sailor ( Read more... )

so im here at my parents house. and my computer here SUCKS. grjdkawtj evil piece of crap ( Read more... )

i was just lying in bed watching scott sleep (because i can't, alas, i ran out of my sleeping meds) and i remembered that for the most part all the pain and shitty-ness is worth enduring for those few perfect moments, even if it's hard to remember that during the bad parts. i'm still overwhelmed/hurting/upset/depressed/pissed-off at life and all ( Read more... )

been sick as all fuck lately. and this means missing class and falling behind. hooray. i swear if i knew tyler was up there with the hardest, most serious art schools.... meh. i have a meeting tommorrow (or today i suppose) morning with the head of disabilities at main campus ( Read more... )