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Ok..so I don't know why I feel the need to post this, but I do, so deal with it.   I think it's ok i guess.. It's obviously a stream of consciousness, so if a stream of consciousness can be good, i guess this one is..  Before anybody freaks out, I wrote this months ago when Josh wanted to take a break.

Every Night

Every night she thinks about how ( Read more... )

I just need to get some things out there.  Just to get them out of my head, where they have been giving me nothing but trouble.  As if I need more anxiety in my life right now.

Here goes.  Starting about 6 hours after my last post.  Literally.

10:30pm- the friday I last posted, I ended up in the ER at Thompson hospital because I had what we believe ( Read more... )

Well, things have definitely slowed down alittle, just in time for them all to speed up again.  School starts in 4 days. Yikes! Im gonna be a COLLEGE FRESHMAN?!  where did the time go.  Mostly I've been pretty good. busy summer, working and vacations with my family, it's been a bit more than insane.  Working some crazy hours though,, but it's ok, I ( Read more... )

So, Idk.  Josh and I have been better..but not great ya know?   Things are going downhill right now, but I think we're both stressed like to the max.  I am anyways..and Im not a fun person when Im stressed.

2 days until ball 2 days until ball 2 days until ball 2 days until ball 2 days until ball, 2 days until ball.  It's crazyness, but its really ( Read more... )

Here I am. A sad little girl who is obsessed with this boy who she thinks is the love of her life.  The one just like the one sitting next to you.  The one who pretends to be happy and that the little things don't matter.  Here's alittle piece of advice.  The Little things Mean the most, and hurt the most.

Today was awful.  Josh was sick..and ( Read more... )

Yeah, again I'm leaving a warning.  I don't know who it is that reads this, and I don't really care either.  If you don't like my bitching then get over it and leave.  This is here for me and me only, so go away and get over yourself if you have a problem with it.

I don't know.  Josh and I have been better lately i guess.  better, but not good.  I'm ( Read more... )

I feel like my world is crumbling around me...again.  i really need to talk to someone. 

I fucking hate life right now. Seriously. I just want to die. I'm a failure. I can't even get into the college I want to go to, and I am on the verge of not graduatiung because I am failing English--well, if I'm not I'm really fricken close to it. All my grades have dropped, except physics, and it's incredibly depressing. I just fucking hate ( Read more... )

I don't like to complain, but whatever ( Read more... )