I feel like my whole life is different.

Different than i was expecting.

I’ve lost my friends. I don’t know how it happened.

I feel like im the only one trying.

When im supposed to hang out with marcus he conveniently doesnt get my texts or something.

And well, things have been going downhill with dani for a while now. And i finally just got tired really ( Read more... )

i went to the lake today, by myself, cuz i dont have any one else to go with. so i just put my feet barely in the water, cuz frankly it grosses me out a little bit. but there was like NO one there. i kinda thought it was weird, but i guess its not always full of people. i cant figure out how to get to the other side of it for the life of me though ( Read more... )

so basically i went to eat with the familia and order drinks or whatev ( Read more... )

A trip to the beer store and firework stand.

We were comin home on all the winding country roads. Windows down. Hair blowing around wild-like. A good song blasting. And all the sweet smells of the night coming and going. Cows, chicken coops, campfires, fresh cut wood, flowers, trees, everything. And for those fleeting minutes i feel happy. Happy ( Read more... )

i j ust wrote this fucking long ass entry about EVERYTHING....everything . how i feel. what i think. everything ( Read more... )

seriously. i hate how retarded i am sometimes.

geeze-ah.

And maybe that's just what happened here... Yeah, maybe.

I'm sure of it now.

It hurts, a whole lot.

But it's definitely real.

God, I hate how stupid, and pitiful, and ridiculous I am sometimes.

I think I'm leavin in May. I don't know where I'm going, or for how long. I need to think, and figure out what's important. Everything is so foggy here. And ( Read more... )

i just dont know any more ( Read more... )

i miss this thing. for reals ( Read more... )

i hate today.

ughhhh.