So I'm doing this for Jacob, he's the reason I made this. I've been thinking about him a lot recently. Today I was upset and saw him at the graveyard after my first order with Waitr, which happened to be for Kayla Ballmer. It fucked me up. I cried and sat there wishing that I could talk to Jacob about it. I didn't expect to see him. I was going ( Read more... )

Today I was hoping I could have a day as good as yesterday. I woke up late. I was supposed to go to my dads house today to get my oil changed. but it was too late. so i withdrew the rest of my money for rent then went to petsmart for joe then went back. Everything was fine. Then Irena said that we had to have chores. I have a problem with doing ( Read more... )

so it's december first. we live at matt n irenas now and we have our own bed in the living room. we have a crested gecko and a bearded dragon. i'm working at hot topic and he's working at petsmart. today i felt love again like i did when we first met. i started smoking weed again too. i'm really happy. matt and irena had a fight about their ( Read more... )

so life is going alot smoother.We're going on tour with hawthorne heights in 2 days. I love joes alot. we went to his dads to wash clothes last night and stayed there watching britney spears on fuse then went home and watched lady gaga videos and saw the 5,4,3,2,1. It's fucking insane. We passed out and woke up at 6pm then went to his practice and ( Read more... )

i don't understand this bullshit. i just want to know why. it bothers me so much that it's almost like everything around me is the way it is just to piss me off. that things are that way and they'll never change. are we cursed, do we have bad luck, or does god and satan just hate us. tonight made me want to slam my face into the pavement. ( Read more... )

nothing exciting has happened. i'm starting to hate life. i think i'm ready to go. i'm not having fun anymore. i'm not happy. and i'm slowly hurting and getting sicker. i hate it. i just work to make money to live in this shitty place. there's fleas in our room. i think it's fucked up how i'm freaking out, because i have fleas all over me and i can ( Read more... )

i'm living with my boyfriend joseph henry poliquin in a house on jefferson. our room is dirty as fuck. all i did today was sleep. i slept for 15 hours. i think my car is killing us because we left the windows down while it rained and there's mold now. but yeh... we feel like shit. i'm off work until friday. we're probably going to clean our room ( Read more... )

I'M BACK FUCKERS!!!!!

Yesterday my "family" came up with the GREAT idea to have a bday party for my 74 year old grandpaw... and that my dad was going to bbq rib-eye steaks for EVERYONE yeah... and MARY, PATTY, and REGINA were all gonna pay my dad 100 each for the meat. WELLL.... turns out that no one paid. REGINA.. that had the most people there.. like 6 decided that ( Read more... )

well.. last night was pretty fun. Starts off with me, jeff, trent, and ben all crammed into trent's truck and justin and kenny under the cover in the back of the truck.. lol ( Read more... )