what they don't know.... is that im cheating on my boyfriend with my bestfriend..... and my sister!

PS thanks brian!

100 days!!!!!!

i have been clean for 100 days.

go me.

I got a new livejournal, its gonna be friends only. so if you want me to add you, reply to this post and tell me that you want to be on my new friends list. cause im gonna stop looking at this one in about a week or two and im not gonna post anymore.

*mo*

yet again, i feel negative today. people finally got the balls to ask me where i was, and a few of them i just couldnt brush off. so i had to tell some people about what happened. and my friend jen was really sad about what i told her. we have been really close since my freshman year when we both started playing waterpolo. and when i told her my ( Read more... )

today has not been a good day for me. it was my first day back to school, and we watch a sad movie that got to me all day. then they made me change my shirt, i reminded of that i was bitter that something didnt happen to me. and then i come home and it just gets worse. there are problems going on in my family, and i dont like this crap. today was a ( Read more... )

............... some are very bad.

today i tried not to let it get to me. i really did. i was thinking too much all freaking day. i just tried not to think about anything, not to dwell. i was at work and i was fine, and then i was out with meiko. but then i saw something, and it got to me. i just started to cry, i cried and cried. i had to fight ( Read more... )

i was gonna go to church, but it starts at 12:30 and i woke up not too long ago. oh well, He understands. so yea, im just being a fat kid for a while and then i got to get ready for work. 3-8:30. and i am working snack bar. good stuff. at least i am not so bored. but i bet there gonna make me clean that damn sink again. im gonna piss on that sink ( Read more... )

today i woke up kinda early even though i didnt have to. and brian and i went to mcdonalds and got breakfast and then we saw mona lisa smile. it was great. i cried, but then again i am a pussy. then i had to work. it sucked. i was with new people. so i did everything. blah. now i am tired and off to sleep. nighty nite yall.
**mo**

so today i had a pretty busy day. woke up and then i went to work. and  brian brought me my money, and then mieko brought me lunch. i had to clean like everything and then i got home at like 545 ish. then i went out with brian, it was fun. we were gonna go to group but i really didnt want to go. so we went to the center but instead just went to the ( Read more... )

i just ate a fat sandwich, it was soooo good. and yea.

90 Days

2160 hours

129600 minutes

7776000 seconds

i have now been clean from drugs and alcohol for 90 days. its been a long journey. its taken alot of work. its been damn hard, and some things have tested me alot, and i have had moments where i was getting weak. but i am clean, and i am gonna ( Read more... )