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a new school year
okay I'm back at school at the start of a new year and i put on 25 lbs and now even maybe more and it is terrifying but i promised myself and my mother that it would all come off soon so tomorrow is a new start to a new me and a new life because i hate the way i look and i need to feel better about myself...I will be going through a complete ( Read more... ) -
Fast day 1
okay girl I have failed everyday since trying a fast and well since I am starting on a monday I thought it would help so lets see if it works. At work it is always tough for me to resist eating all the snacks cuz i love salty snacks like wheat crackers and cheese crackers! ugh! sooo tough! well my starting weight is 148 and thats a problem! so i ( Read more... ) -
A good start to a rushed week
I woke up this morning feeling very energized after going to bed at 4 am! I woke up determined and like its been 12 hours since I last put anything in my mouth and I have had two diet pepsi's and a diet pill. its working i'm peeing a lot....I have become obsessed with the show on the BBC America You are what you eat and I'm not hungry while ( Read more... ) -
Weightless
So this weekend didn't go well with a diet i ate out almost everyday thanks to teddy and like today all i wanted for lunch was soup and he wouldn't let me have just soup it sucked! I started my new fast at 6pm after eating at 5 and I'm not gonna eat till 6 tomorrow when teddy comes to see me after work to get a lot of my stuff to bring home since ( Read more... ) -
Control control
I didn't eat much today but i made some pasta and ate the whole thing so I was staring at myself in the mirror and I got the urge to make myself through up so I did but i didn't get everything out it was like my body wouldn't let me but I still got some out of my system....I never really made myself puke and it feels good to be in control wow I can ( Read more... ) -
Here comes the fear again
Today was a nice day Teddy and I slept all day then we finally got out of bed watched hannah montana and cuddled and had sex of course but then we hung out with my family and ate dinner and had a drink...Teddy is a diabetic so we have to be careful with what he eats and all but he wears a pump. he knows i don't eat everyday but worries about me but ( Read more... )
