oh man the darkness has finally won this time and life can show no mercy and it can tare you apart.

well today i didn't eat till 9 pm with my parents i had snow crab legs and bread and mussles and shrimp and wings and fries ugh! but thats all i ate and i refuse to eat anything else tonight and then i went bowling with ali then i drank 3 jack and gingers ugh i'm an alcoholic! i need to lose this weight! on monday i'll be back to school i am at the ( Read more... )

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Mike and I are offically a couple on monday after monday night football thanks to me asking him out. I cried on the phone tonight to my mom about me gaining weight and she knows I have always troubled over this and its just getting worse! its so hard at least mike knows what he's getting himself into with me.

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I woke up this morning to the sound of mike's voice he called me at 7:30 to make sure i was up for class but there was no point my class was cancled due to my teacher not being able to get to Ramapo because she has to go over mountians which sucks. Lastnight mike and i came to the conclusion that we should just be boyfriend and girlfriend already ( Read more... )

Are you hanging on for hope? The clock strikes past the hour. Is the pain enough to choke the life out? You may never get to sleep. Your time is not your time tonight. Her smile will make you weak and proud. Do you ever miss her? Do you feel the cold wind whisper? Is there anything more deafening? Are you hanging on for hope? It's all you've got ( Read more... )

Lastnight was my breaking point I had a breakdown at Erin's and cried on john's chest and with mike and erin all around me. I want this hurting to stop its killing me. I want to feel like i can trust people again and I want to love again I want to fall in love with mike. All I want is to be loved...I had a cup of coffee with fat free milk in it ( Read more... )

Arizona curled up with California, then she tried to hide the whole thing from New Mexico, who knew before he saw them making out in Yuma that she had been loving someone new ( Read more... )

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