So, I still don't have her back:( But she tells me she loves me, and that she is IN love with me... She just needs her space... but that is SO hard to give! I mean seriously, I want to grab her and hold her and keep her forever and i just have to sit back and watch... GRRR... Oh yeah, i also have the most insane fever! I went from 98.7 to 103.0 ( Read more... )

So, I realize now that being depressed is not the thing to do. I have got to focus on protecting a friendship, and if it happens again, it happens. I love her, I always will, but before we can be anything else we have go to be friends. :)

Thank you all for your support! :)

I can not stand being alone, and i am. I screwed up royally and i deserve everything i have coming to me. Someone please help me. I hate me. I hate my life. I hate the decisions i've made. And mostly i hate that i practically gave away the best thing to ever happen to me. She made me want to live life. She made me want to wake up because ( Read more... )

Ok I admit... NOT DRINKING IS OVERRATED... but still, save it til 21! I did!

Wanna know why? HE GAVE ME A GUITAR! A vintage 60's electric. NO STRINGS ATTACHED. I just have to take it to his house and play him a song on it, which means... I GOT A NEW GUITAR! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

Yeah its the Bar-B-Que Festival again... hooray for streets filled with drunken idiots and puke! Already on a head start are half of my fellow employees :) Whoopdeedoo

So, champagne is good for the first couple of drinks, but i'm not big on the after taste.

Yeah yeah, happy birthday and all that noise... I'm 21

So I'm most definitely on a Jack Johnson binge! Man I love that guy. I wanna move to Hawaii and sit around playing guitar writing songs about beautiful sunsets and on and on and on and on and on it goes... (yes, lyric) Sheesh... well, life is good as usual, work is picking up, I may be getting promoted, I'm designing the light plot for a show at ( Read more... )

So yeah... I'll be at work today on 42nd Street from 7:30am til 2:00am... you got that right! Oy.