Alright, no more of this “I suck and thinking I am a loser.” It’s not me, it won’t get me anywhere, and it’s destroying everything I have said about life and who I think I am ( Read more... )

I came to a horrible realization yesterday. It was the first time I have really felt this way since I came to Arizona. I realized that I really am not doing alright at the moment. Other than the spurts of drunkeness in which I look to escape my current situation, I have just not been too happy in a few weeks. I know that this will not last, and ( Read more... )

Lately one of the things I look forward to during the week is the ASU football game. And to add to my troubles of the month of October, ASU has been letting me down week after week. We started by blowing an 18 point lead to USC in a game we really should have won. Then we followed that by not even showing up against a decent Oregon team that ( Read more... )

So apparently there are a ton of jobs available to someone with a degree. But all the ones I want seem to require some actual experience, so unless I can find the salesman inside of me, which I am realizing more and more that I may be too kind and a little too submissive to be a good cut throat or even a good relationship-oriented salesman. I am ( Read more... )

I am going to take one last shot at my anger and frustration, even though things are going pretty well other than the fact that I still can't believe that I loved and still unfortunately do love that dirty little bitch. So I thought I would take full advantage of one of the rare times in which the poetic beauty of an AC/DC song can sum up my ( Read more... )

I want to make her feel terrible ( Read more... )

It has been a while since I wrote in a journal, a lot of that has to do with the fact that I have been too busy to write much, and I haven’t I had much time to deeply think and philosophize. That was a really good thing. While at my mindless UPS job, I would either be consumed by music or my mind would roam to the edges of the universe. Then I ( Read more... )