Sometimes I feel I’m completely run dry of unique ideas and even, dare I say, thoughts, and the post-moderism kicks in and has me feeling wholly and utterly unoriginal ( Read more... )

So I've spent just about every waking minute with Mary for the past month and a half and I am completely loving it. We had a lot of lost time to catch up for. It's amazing how quickly we were able to just dive back into our relationship. I suppose that you know you've found a friend for life when you can just pick up right where you left off, never ( Read more... )

I'm so ambivilant anymore it's ridiculous. I know, I've always been, but I'm just realizing the harsh extent of it now. I'm stuck, and I know it. My ambivalence keeps me stuck, and the worst part is, I'm not even fighting to find a way out. I suppose I keep thinking that if I merely let all of the events unfold and I just sit back and lay low, ( Read more... )

I remember when I was little and used to crawl on the floor next to my mother's bed when I got really frightened. I never had weird dreams with monsters or make believe shadows chasing me. I was always so scared and I never understood why, but I would just cry and shake and tremble. Sometimes if I was really brave, I'd crawl in next to her and weep ( Read more... )

"i'm wide awake, it's morning ( Read more... )

it's just so much and much too quickly, yet never enough, like nothing can fill me. god damn it that rhymed...i was going off on a tangent too. fuck. i could have just said i feel insatiable ( Read more... )

How ironic can life get ( Read more... )

mmmkay.

l-o-v-e.

define it for me.

because i don't think i can.

I think I've finally realized what everyone was talking about in reference to me. I mean...I've always known, but in a way, I've just tried to overlook it? Or something. I'm not certain anymore ( Read more... )

I don't know why. I guess it's because I'm a girl. I wish I was a guy, I really do.

But for some reason...no matter how much I try to refrain myself...

...I just always get my hopes up.

And I'm always let down.

What else is new?

god.