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[im_no_her0ine]

i don't know what's wrong with me.ic an't stop crying. all of a sudden i just started crying when i looked at myself. and i just couldn't stop. and i want to cry about everything. i'm so aggitated and i'm just so effing sick of everything. i don't even want to do this anymore, it's taking too much out of me. i'm just wasting everyone's time

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[lust_juxtaposed]

An aspect of an eating disorder is control. Sometimes I try to flip that around. Eventually, you lose control and the ed controls your life. So, by conquering the eating disorder you are in effect gaining back control. Control of your life. Control of your future.

Just wanted to throw that out there.

You are thin. Healthy does not equate to being fat. You can be thin and still look healthy. Now, a sick thin. Do you want to be sickly thin again? If so, do you know why? (not looking for verbal answers..I know i've been blindsided by intense desires to be emaciated again at random times and i've really had to sit down and analyze the reasons behind those desires).

You aren't weak at all honey. Recovery takes work. And I know you can kick this ed shite when you are ready to. I have the most confidence in your ability to do so.

Take care of yourself honey, love ya

xoxox
tay

[im_no_her0ine]

it seems so cik that i want to be sickly thin again. i want to be a noticeable thin. not a normal weight. it's like, sports was the only thing i was ever good at, then because of my ed, i had to lose all activites, so then my ed became my knew trophy display. i was good at it. i just want to be good at it again..

i love you

[anonymous]

i have to run to class in a second but i just read your journal and it made me cry. im crying because i have very similar feelings and because you are too incredible and do not deserve all this pain. not that that helps, but i cant help it. i had to say it.
i love you so much
hang in there, we'll talk soon
xoxo
amalia