I Just Got off the phone with Brian.He was ganna ask me out.Idk it was odd. He said one thing that made me mad but is also ture "i can understand this happening,your so weak" he told me he want me to break up with alex even if we dont go out hes scared for me.I think I love this boy. :-(

Brain just kissed me and all I did was kiss back....I know I love brain but do I love him like that?all i could do was run home.im a loser i have no clue how i feel right now?Do i like him? Idk

Well Im starting to feel better now. I just got home..I hung out with Brian. I duno its kind of creepy, I know he likes me, but hes just my friend :-/ I dont really see him more than that. I feel so bad too...what to do?

I have to work tomorrow and itr sucks. I hate getting up early!

Yesterday I went to the beach. It was a lot of fun. It was me,brian,julie,alexis,mark,and josh. I love swimming!

alex called earlier :-/ I didnt answer thouhg..Im scared to talk to him.

ahhhh I have such a horrible headache!! maybe cause I havent ate ina while? :-/

Haha you have such an easy password to figure out, Madison. :-p

love you!- Julie

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I feel like crap. I havent felt this depressed in a long time. And what do I do when Im depressed? Eat...too much. I hate myself. I have to stop. Im really sick of my so called boyfriend hanging out with other girls. Especailly when he ditches me to. Thanks..that really makes me feel good about myself. And to make it worse today was our 2 months. ( Read more... )

I'm new to live journal and I dont know anyone who uses Liv ejournal to get out everything I feel. Im also gona keep this friends only...just to keep it private..