Those tears were meant for someone else. But alas were wiped away by me. You love was meant ( Read more... )

stumbling towards my demise, i turn to watch you. I shed a single tear, knowing what I wanted will never be. the knife puntured too deep love. too deep. now quickly before my eyes close for eternity, kiss me. May the poison of your lips slew my passion. and may i die with my lips pressed against yours.

"we don't want to be the enemies of what we used to be" it's a sugarcult line . they aren't the deepest band. and theysold out until their meaning was lost on the airwaves of mtv. but those lyrics sir my heart, because of every group or old firend i've had, i am their enemy. as i walk through life i burn bridges behind me, never to return. only ( Read more... )

things i like about my past: robyn, jimmy, sometimes sally, music, bed, camp
things i hate: everything else
Things i like abut my future:everything

so life is fucken weird, but i've been happy. i need like a vacation to better understand shit. im failing 2 classes but whatever. i feel like i need a drink, but thats' the usual. anyways seeing a game tonight. should be decnet. is it weird that randomly someone from your past who suppsoviely hates you IM's you?

you do this ( Read more... )

first ciggerette today in 3 weeks or so. so much for quitting, ey? i need to fucking start over. like move out to LA or some shit. this place isn't home. i just don't know if i'll find one out there.

i'm supposed to update, for my friends sake, but i don't have much to say. this girl i know acted really fucken sexy today, and played some kind of sex mind game with me. it really turned me on. thats about it. bye

robyn was right, im a fucken alcoholic. fucken a man. im to young for this shit.

everytime i talk to her i fall harder for her. i dont know why. im so scared that it wont work out. i just don't know how confident i can be. im so used to the let downs. i dont know she shows so much promsie. im gonna try to do halloween with her. maybe even ask her out then. i dont know. bleh. she;s the only ting im focused on right now.