I used to think that me getting a job would make it easier in terms of financial stuff but right now I kind of feel like I'm being much more of a burden than actually being able to help out. I'm really out of cash I don't even have money to go to work or eat so I have to ask my Mom for money to spend for the day, asking money from her lets her ( Read more... )

It's time to dump my thoughts here again. There's been quite a lot running through my mind for the past days and there's really no way to unload all of them so I must turn back to this and let them run free and move on with my life. Hmm, though I don't think there's much to say anymore...maybe if I wrote about it right away there was a lot to say. ( Read more... )

It's been 6 months and I still don't have a job. It does kind of feel like I'm wasting my life away and all so yeah I guess it's time to stop holding on or having that pride of not taking jobs outside the career path you want or you studied in college. So I've sent a resume to being a proofreader or editor of some sort. Not that I'm very good at it ( Read more... )

I told myself I'd lay off of this because it's always just filled of negatives thoughts and sad things and it's not really fun to read when I look back.....but I can't seem to draw myself away from this. It's an outlet and outlet's are good or else my head fills up and things get messy ( Read more... )

   You can't depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus.
-- Mark Twain   
I find truth in that because that's what I'm going through. My self centered-ness  and delusional head makes me see things that aren't really there anymore. When I start thinking that hey it's about me, it's because of me, when it's not. Maybe because I'm that ( Read more... )

Not sure where to go
Everybody I know says I'm too forgiving
And now that I'm gone, I don't want to move on
I just keep reliving
All good things come to an end
All good things, oh I wish you well
Lost inside of my head, empty side of the bed
I feel this place without you
I keep pushing the bruise
'Cause I don't want to lose what I loved about you
I could ( Read more... )

Hm, this is a little late of a blog I guess. I mean I was suppose to type this down a couple of days back but I got lazy. So I will do this quick because I'm sleepy and I have this monthly girl thing going on so yeah, let's just go sleep. Anyway, hmm, it's my first time to be at a club SINGLE. Yes. My friends invited me to go club with them with ( Read more... )

That moment when you see a speeding truck and you get the feeling of wanting to still cross even if you know you won't make it but then there's this weird force that stops you ( Read more... )

Yesterday was Valentines and I spent it with a guy who was just as bitter or well, was sulking over the whole thing. It was a bit weird, but walking around the mall surrounded by couples, either holding hands, holding flowers or wearing couple shirts just made the both of us long for something we both didn't have. It was a good day though. Pretty ( Read more... )

Didn't I give it all,
Tried my best,
Gave you everything I had,
Everything and no less?
Didn't I do it right?
Did I let you down?
Still how can you walk away
From all my tears?
It's gonna be an empty road
Without me right here.

But go on and take it,
Take it all with you.
Don't look back
At this crumbling fool.
Just take it all
With my love.

So is it over?
Is this ( Read more... )