i'm exhausted
i'm sick
i'm pushed to the limit
i'm miserable
i'm lost
i'm worthless
i have no purpose
i've failed

i lost the only thing that ever gave me a purpose
a reason to live
a reason to be

i ruined it
i ruined my life
i ruined yours
i ruined theirs before it could even ever begin

i'm lost
i don't think i can do it anymore
any of it

i'm afraid to change
but i ( Read more... )

i'm afraid to jump ( Read more... )

so i was looking at the website six billion secrets (http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com) well, i probably have almost six billion secrets on my own. and since only a tiny handfull of the people on here actually know me in the real world, and they are all people who i trust with my secrets, it's almost like the same anonymity as if i was sharing with ( Read more... )

this one goes out to all the girls ( Read more... )

why?
a road block
a curve ball
sweetheart

i love you with all of my heart
we're different darling
of course we are
haven't we known that all along?
up till now you've respected our differences
as have i
you laugh at the tough girl that everybody sees
because you know i'm sensitive
you scoff when i say i never cry
because you've seen the waterworks
even though ( Read more... )

where are u?


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did u know ( Read more... )

one is love
and one is sex
while my love is away
i must rely on the other's sex
but what do i do
if i lose his love
because of the other's sex?

today was weird. fuckin weird. i'm trying to make my life better. start it over, do it right. or, what everyone else says will make it right. what if i don't agree? what if i'm doing what everyone tells me to do so they will shut the fuck up, nevermind if what they're saying actually applies. but today made it hard. and i just want everyone off my ( Read more... )

the familiar smoke screen of my city ( Read more... )