oh by the way. when i move next year my goal is to get tom marony to fall madly inlove with me. oh yah. because honestly. lol theres no one in mass for me.

holy shit. i just got back from new york and i fucking miss it there so0o much. i miss tom and i def mis brendan, i use to have the hugest crush on him and i still do lol, he is so adorable. but anyways. lets see. had a good x-mas. had a fucking blast in ny. new years eve was sweet! naz liz and my aunt did karaoke lol they were some drunk fucks let ( Read more... )

 sometimes you just get me so mad.

Or sometimes you actually hurt me.

That becuase you know what weakens me.

You know what things piss me off.

So whenever you do that to me.

I want to go insane and and start to hate.

I get so mad that i,

i actually  want to tell every last secret of yours.

to the whole world!

i just want to flip out on you and ( Read more... )

everyone go to thi site now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://pixyland.org/peterpan/photo_closeups_pp5.htm

so yah my tongue is pierced. i <3 i dont knowwhat the big deal about tongue piercings are... lol who the fuck am i kidding they rock.  dude OMG!!!!!!!! 5 more days till christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yesssssaaaa bitchass. lol then uhhh uhhh... 7 more days till i go to ny.. o0o la la then i get to see tom marony and hes gonna be like got any new ( Read more... )

OMG I JUST REMEMBERED ONE OF THE ODDEST THINGS. well not odd but random. i remeber when we were in bridgewater me manada and april and manada was trippen and she painted her nails black... that shit was funny. damn... i forgot all about that and like the next day she went to do sumtin and shel ooked at her nails and was liek ahhhh

i have no one to say i love you to at night right before bed.

im in such a depressing mood. its horrible. my arm hurts. i got in a car accident today. how ironic.

13 things i want and dotn want.

1. i dont want to do pills any more.

2. i want to give david his x-mas candy cane and give him a hug

3.  i want david to come back becuase i know that ( Read more... )

"I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid. Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll ( Read more... )

i dont know what to say. today was weird. sad. painful. just flat out horrible.

i dont know what to do now. i feel like im losing everyone. i cant believe david is gone. now when i walk thorugh those loud, obnoxious halls there will no longer be that helping smile that could just fix your whole day. now its just gonna be weird he wotn be there ( Read more... )

oh by the way. im the immature one? fucking learn how to treat people with respect then i'll fucking treat you like a friend and not like shit, sure oyu can say oh i still love you and all that fucking shit... well it you do why odnt you prove it and not fucking laugh at me, tell me to shut up, and then get pist when i holler back. i dont think so ( Read more... )