come on now. 3 times in one day? i must be the most repulsive thing on this god forsaken planet. it's all for the best i suppose, and it's easy to see. on the bright side tolo was a blast. granted there was some drama but for the most part i had a great time with my friends... making and arse of myself. and possibly embarrasing tyler, but yeah it ( Read more... )

mmm i feel so numb. a partial breathing point in which i can look at my life at it's current state andy simply ..sigh.it feels so good, so terrible, so exciting, so boring, so ...temporary. the world has its nasty little habit of revolving, and definetly hasnt skipped a beat. some of my relationships with my friends seem somewhat tarnished, also as ( Read more... )

I havent really been able to post much latley, considering my immense anger and the fact that my laptop is busted. again. but i have been able to get to know myself better, and the people around me. i value each and every one of you wether you know it or not. brittany and i are going to start a class together. this will be class "blank" so that way ( Read more... )

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oh....what have I gotten myself into?....

It's been a little over a week since the last time that I've posted, and I can't believe how much my feelings towards everyone and everything has changed. refreshed. renewed. short of starting over but nonetheless outstanding. After monday last week the rest of the week kinda marched in the same manner. but this weekend. things have changed, and im ( Read more... )

its all about how it looks...huh mom. you will never believe me again, and for that i bid goodbye. farewell. the last thing im gonna do is look that asshole in the eye in court. pick your sides, you already did...gee its cold over here.

i think today takes the cake for the worst day in my entire life. i finally confronted oma and opa about there lies that theyve showered jake and i in our whole lives...as well as my sperm doner. okay we were having lunch when she tried to pull the whole "okay you know when we were out of your lives for 4 years, we were just trying to give your ( Read more... )

God what is it that im FEELING???? is it excitement....dissapointment. am i decisive, non-decisive. am i happy where im at, do i need a change? i feel like when i was younger.....at the beach, in the water, my feet knocked out from under me and my lungs feel as if they are filling with water...weighing me down. im drowning, im dying but in slow ( Read more... )

i promise i wont ever post another one of those again, but it was so eerily correct i had to tell someone and you ARE my someone. well ive been hanging out with blaze a whole lot during this 4 day weekend thing which for the most part has been cool. we're becomming really good friends, but i just feel bad sometimes because i know he wants it to be ( Read more... )