my dad thinks i have an eating disorder bc i wouldnt go downstairs for dinner.
the real reason is bc i didnt want him to know i have been crying all night.

when the ac cuts off i feel like i have to stop crying so he wont hear me.

what a life.

how many nights will i have to do this until i learn? 

I really want to go down stairs to get something to eat but I hear my white roommate yelling at chase about how his hoe of a gf doent need to pay rent/bills. fucking bullshit! THat hoe face is gonna pay. or i will stop paying my share of the bills...sucks all the bills are in his name... boohoo for dumb white boy ( Read more... )

my roommates girlfriend uses a douche.
Is this normal? Ive never known anyone who has used it.
I only know about it because she left the empty bottle thing on our tub. sick! I had no idea what is was so I had to google it and see what the fuck it was.

I am weireded out.

Ok so a couple weeks ago I had a major flipout/ anxiety attack and had my mom fly up to New Jersey to come get me and we drove from Jersey to Texas in 3 days. While in the Woodlands I talked to a psychologist and she helped me figure out what everyone else had/has been telling me.  But the bottom line was that I was wondering if this what the right ( Read more... )

Ok so not so sure if im happy about having to get a 2nd job but it will def help out if not kill me. I havent worked in about a month now and Im dying. I love making money. I need to be intertained through out the day and everyday i wake up w/ no agenda i feel worthless. I know Im not! I know I am amazing. So today I had another interveiw at Apple ( Read more... )

I finally landed a job yesterday as an Assistant manager for Avenue. I start next week. I have a mix of emotions right now. I feel happy that I have a job and I will beable to pay my bills...but I am still frustrated because I thought Id be getting paid more. I will be getting paid less than I did at the bank! But my mom is paying for my health ( Read more... )

Today was all about being positive! 
I started my day early so I could hit as many places as i could. 
1st. I applied at Leslie Pool supply - I should get a call back next week from the DM for assistant Manager.

2nd. Liquor store- I need to meet the owner tomorrow night.

3rd. I went to walmart and was told to come back Monday to meet with their hiring ( Read more... )

 Im sick of filling out applications. 
Im sick of answering dumb questions.

But...I feel like something good is about to happen. I dont know what it is but instead of crying again today I fet that all this will soon pay off. It has to. 

 Today was not so great. Pretty sad bc I dont have a job yet. I think i cried for almost 2 hrs. Pretty pathetic. Chase laughed at me bc im ridic. Then hugged me until I stoped.  I just want to work. Its not so easy in this town. ughhghghghghghgghghghghghghghhhh ( Read more... )

I had an interview today that went really well. I wish I could get a job as quick as I use to. Its going on my 2nd week here and no job.grr! I wanna work. I wanna make money. Today is frustrating because I know I have no interviews or anything to do tomorrow. I hate not having things to do. I guess ill just drive around and fill out more ( Read more... )