September 21st, 2008

For some reason lately, I have felt the need to be embraced. For the first time, I have in a need for hugs. It is a strange sensation, because I didn’t even like hugs… until recently. Now, I feel they are necessary for me to feel complete every day. It feels as if I am weakening, losing everything I have built up in the past ( Read more... )

I am officially a home owner. If anyone is ever in Kansas City and needs a place to stay... Please come to me, I'd like some visitors.

It is really nice to actually have a place to exist. I haven't had that in exactly a year.

Who am I? Where am I? Why am I here? What am I looking for-What do I want?

Is it odd that I question myself and my life like I would a character in a scene or play? Even though my theory of life is that of all the world is a stage, why am I still stuck on who my character is and what my motivations are?

This is the first time in two years ( Read more... )

I have been questioning humanity lately and how I am losing my faith in it.

I was just informed that my mom and step-dad are separating. I do not know for how long or if it is permeate. I struggle with the thought that two people who have loved each other for so long could just stop. Why bother even falling in love if it could end after any ( Read more... )

May 10th, 2008

I really enjoy thinking back to this date one year ago. It is a wonderful way to reflect on time and yourself. I was at prom about a year ago. I was wild at this time in my life. I was upset about college. I did not know where I was going. I found out I was going to UMKC a few days before my graduation. How scary is that? What ( Read more... )

May 6th, 2008

I feel like I owe the world and everyone in it something better than this. I feel like I owe myself something better than this. I feel like I am in the same spot as I was last year, minus the drugs and not knowing where my life was going. I still don’t know where I am going, but at least I have a place to be. But, right now, I just ( Read more... )

I really need to start watching Sex and the City more often. It is inspires me. I also need to find more time. It has been way too long since I have written something besides English nonsense.

I was thinking tonight about the past, when I came to the present, and then to the future.

There have been many changes since last semester. I fought ( Read more... )

January 1st, 2008. (I actually started this way back on December 31, 2007 ( Read more... )

i'm really sad that the java hut is closing and that i will not be there for it.

I have been thinking lately about why I box up emotions. I mean, of course there is the fear of rejection, but I feel that my issues with opening up go deeper.

There are so many things that happen to us in our childhood that can affect us for the rest of our life. Sometimes when I was younger, my parents and I would get into arguments. I don’t ( Read more... )