So I wasn't planning on having New Years Resolutions, because I had lots last year and I feel like I did a whole lot last year in terms of developing my knowledge base, relationships, good habits, etc.... And this year holds plenty of self-improvements that are kind of 'built in' to my plans. I'll be getting married, so my home will start fresh ( Read more... )

So... Life is Good.
I just finished my second-to-last semester at Case, and my next semester will be filled with thrilling classes (Photography Lab? Palestine & Israel? Yoga!) and will be happily void of extracurricular activity.
This semester pushed me well beyond my limit, and I'm just waiting for the onslaught of emotional baggage I will ( Read more... )

I've taken my recent habit of e-mailing people back immediately and extensively to mean that I have enough time and energy to update my eljay. *gasp!* So, what to say? My summer has been really wild- I spent the Spring months hoping and praying that I would get some thrilling, resume-building experience. Needless to say, I was disappointed when, ( Read more... )

Why do we do it? Lately, I've been feeling some healing in terms of my relationships with friends, classmates, and family. I've made progress in stepping forward where my rights as an individual- an individual with time, work, values, and dignity- are violated. Maybe my behavior is necessary but disappointing to others, or maybe it's just plain ( Read more... )

The semester is over, and I'm home in Potomac, Maryland. As many of you are or will be shortly, I am bored and surfing the internet. I read a few posts down and felt nostalgic... so I guess I'll mimic my old self and actually be upfront about everything ( Read more... )

As I was walking down S'O'erlook Road this evening on return from a short-lived attempt at studying, I caught a whiff that brought me back a good ten years- sweet, spicy tomato-ey lemony zest mixed with a touch of oak- Grandma's cooking, although I never merited a taste. That is, not my real grandma, for I suppose you don't pay your grandmother to ( Read more... )

Guilt ( Read more... )

I'm in my house right now for Spring Break. Sounds warm and relaxing, eh? Maybe I've created my own mess, but I'd have to say that it's cold and stressful... Want me to explain? In order to best remove all translucent coatings to my journal that protect me from a humiliated regret I often experience upon looking back on entries, I must be as I am " ( Read more... )

... and there really isn't anything to hide around here. Or any reason to hide it. But somehow I still have trouble letting it all out ( Read more... )

I am sitting in a computer lab because my computer has been infected for 3 weeks. I am listening to the sounds of typing and of geeky kids explaining chemistry to one another. I am pretending to study physiological psychology, to no avail. I am an hour plane ride away from home, but another 2 1/2 weeks away, once again. I am sitting behind this ( Read more... )