yeah, rather boring day.  couldnt do ne thing.  tricias here but shes hangin out wit ma sis's friends.. its all good though.. i dunno im really tired right now.  hmmmm, dunno.  i m so sick of school.  seriously.  also, everyone in it.  ppl just need to shut the fuck up bout other ppl.  everyone hates our school.  then they should just shut up!  ( Read more... )

in one of those moods where i just hate ma life.  report card was absolutely terrible so im freakin out bout that cuz ma rents r gonna ask bout it ne day now.  today, the rents have something stuck up their asses.  i swear i was born for somethin for them to get their anger out on.  basically, i absolutely, definately hate life!

this feelings ( Read more... )

what is up ma ppl!  im back now from FL!  shit, feels weird writing in this damn thing again.  well, the vacation was fun, but i missed ma baby!  andy, ur ma bro.  i hope im tan now!  ima make another pic, another sweet one.  i have an idea!  hell yeah!  well, yeah...

school was aight.  felt gay just cuz i go from heaven to hell in a matter of what ( Read more... )

-when everything is real bad it only gets worse when u think it couldnt.  when eveything is fine -and well and u forgot the last time things were bad they get bad again...

-didnt do much today.  havent talked ta tricia.. except online for like 5 min.  man, just when things should be gettin better they get worse.  im so bored/pissed right now.  dad ( Read more... )

ok, new song.

lost in ur missing life-

Someday I hope I wake up and see u there
ur gone, I know but somehow in my mind ur still there
im slowly fallin in ur missing life and I need to escape before I wake up
this dream swallowed me
wont u hold me one last time?

I miss and hate u cuz ur gone

I need somethin more, something more.

Everywhere I go, ( Read more... )

i kiss ur lips n u kiss me back. i look into ur eyes and u look away.. i can tell somethin is goin on. somethin wrong.. i can tell. im fallin into u and ur pushing it away. i have finally fallin in love and its wit someone that dnt love me back. im feeling this but ur not.

welp, im leaving for andys tomorrow and thursday we r goin to florida!   ( Read more... )

I love/fucking hate you.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

u picked ma heart up n dropped it.  u still have somethin to smile bout!?  im screaming out for u in the dark cold weather.  i hear it break through the worlds silence and reach ur ears.  U have nothing ( Read more... )

hmmmmm, good night sleep, sorta.  cant get a hold of tricia, of course.  rents being fucking gay n constantly bitching at me, i need outta here, of course.  have nothing to do n m bored as fuck, of course.  fuck it.

im always left behind.  such a sad story.  ive lost it all to nothing.  ive gained nothing.  ive been stripped from all happiness.  i ( Read more... )

today is the day i spread ma wings and fly away.

-crazy day.  school suk'd of course.  everyone was very happy today.  i was in a hyper, fake mood.  i really miss tricia.. she didnt go to school today cuz shes sick.  im worried bout her cuz i havent been able to get a hold of her and we were pose to do somethin tonight.  ive called numerous times n ( Read more... )

                The biggest question in life is facing me, looking me straight in the eyes.  before this came a long i was on the edge of life.  i look down and see my toes free off the ledge blowing in the wind.  one push forward would push me off the edge.  one push back would push me into life.  saving me.  the biggest question's answer will ( Read more... )