there we lay on this dark beautiful night looking at the stars out the back of my truck.  we talk about the funny memories life showed us.  past relationships n what weve learned.  holding u is like holding my whole life.  every feeling, every emotion was built up for this moment.  the pressure of holding something so special.  what if im not good ( Read more... )

my mom said i was so unexpected (having me)
-i asked her if its like when u scream boom! to scare others round u and u end up scaring urself.. u never expected to scare urself cuz u knew it was coming. yet, u get scared ne way.
-she said, "somethin like that"!

im so uncomfortable right now. im cold, tired, hungry, bitchy, frustrated, and confused ( Read more... )

im holding on too tight
u came in at the right time
right when i was falling n needed someone to pick me back up
i thank u for makin me feel this way and showing me that everything is okay
i see the ending of our story n baby its u in my arms
im crying inside wit joy becuz uve shielded me from all the harms
these tears r for you
im crying cuz im just so ( Read more... )

the hand lotion
that motion
the groping and hoping
u freak
bed squeak
"hesitation later means masterbation
shit, ur my sex motivation
HAHA!

FUCK U WIGGERS!

this gangsta aint no wangsta
im the numba one rapper
and i aint no bitch slapper
i got my bling and i do ma pimp thing
i flipping ma shit making our pieces fit
grl u fit just right
ur all so fucking ( Read more... )

welp, great fun yesterday.  i missed chris's party though.  we didnt get back til late and like yeah.  plans got fucked.  plus, i heard a person was goin that i didnt like.  well that i hate.  im so sry chris.  next party i will bring alcohol for u.. only u.. i heard lythande and jessica couldnt go.  hmmm, im not the only one that didnt go outta ( Read more... )

these rnt pics but i dnt have time hehe.  next time.. ummm, yeah im perty excited right now.  pball today!  should be home round 8 and i hope i can go to kellys.. maybe not though.  we will see..

so, wit 20 ppl coming over here in bout 30 min im sitting here typing this and i have nothing done.  not ready to go and i think im perty fucked.  i dnt ( Read more... )

just got home.  exciting night.  went to drop ma sis n her two friends off at the kukrals for some party.  we picked up tricia.  went out to eat wit the rents.  funny times.. then chapel hill mall.  it was closed.  then we went to kohls.  omfg, tryin to find some shorts.  didnt work.  "in the fitting room, NOW!"  funny shit.  then we were sitting ( Read more... )

i walk down the halls and walk round the corner.  dressed for her n there for her.  i look through the crowd for her beautiful face.  a few lockers down from mine there she searches through her locker for first period.  she looks to check if im at mine and our eyes meet.  smiles follow and then i walk towards her and hold her.  hugging and asking ( Read more... )

im back again..

random thoughts..

why the hell do ppl talk shit bout others?
why the hell do ppl say theyre in love when they know theyre not?
why the hell do ppl care so much bout what other ppl r all bout?

school is so fucking gay n such a waste of time.  why bother?

i love everything bout u
ur smile makes me smile
ur kiss makes me kiss you back
ur ( Read more... )

i guess theres a lot of talk bout fashion lately that i missed out on.  lovely.. but, im not emo or prep.. does everyone still like me?  i wake up each morning n put ne thing on.. m i not liked cuz of that?  jesus christ.. it shouldnt fucking matter how u dress, u r who u r end of the fucking fairy tale.  ur emo ur prep ur fucking cross dresser, u ( Read more... )