So scared and lonely. I ASKED MYSELF IS SOMETHING WRONGS WITH ME?....All these feelings that I get, but I still don't miss you yet only when I stop to think about it....I HATE everything about you!...Hello there. The angle from my nightmare...
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I can't believe my hearts still pounding. I can't believe how close I came. And meanwhile heavens falling. The fallen angels flown away. And that'll be me someday. With stolen wings and evil ways. Straight south with the keys to the pearly gates. Hard to believe my heart stopped pounding. Hard to believe I played this game. My worst ( Read more... )

And I wonder why I bother....WAnd I wonder why I try....Why I go throught all this trouble....It's gods way of making me look big!
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Of all the things I've believed in ( Read more... )

Okay so I have been able to go a day....I'm freaking out!!! I want it so bad...but I will die so young, what a waist of a life. Okay seriously starting tomorrow it's all gonna be just like it was. The happy sober person I used to be around Krystin. The good person. Although I did lie today....but I couldnt tell the truth who knows what would have ( Read more... )

Today sucked! Queens of the stoneage have broken up! Im so sad!! Why the fuck does everything good get taken away!!?!?! I never did ne thing to deserve this!! Life fuckin sux...so just make it stop...
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Im so mad! Omg Queens of the stoneage broke up!!! Can you believe it after all these years. Im so upset everything i love gets taken away...and it hurts everytime.
.:Aliza:.

Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades ( Read more... )

Hey guys! Omg yesterday rocked!!! The good times with my cousins have coem back, everything is just like it was! Last night at dinner every one was crazy!!And then i didnt eat, because i was afraid she wouls spit in my food. Thats about all i remember...and it was so fun!!! I love my cousins. Nick is still mad at me :( I hope he wont be for too ( Read more... )

Well I guess Nick hates me...even though he can't say why....Kerry is so smart I love her. Hey Marissa..You didnt call me!!! And Cecelia and I are like best of friends now. Things are getting better finally! I guess once you hit rick bottom the only place you can go is up..Im at my cousins house I'm so glad I came! AaaWww and Austin got me the ( Read more... )