Soooo this weekend...was interesting. Friday I played pong in kristins garage with chris, rob, paul, sean and this kid anthony which I met at rock the bells, hes this black guy that I thought was hott but then found out he was gay, but then on friday found out he was bi and wanted to mack but then I said no because he had just got out of a 4 year ( Read more... )

lava pumpin through my veins as I try not to break my teeth as they grit. I wanted you out of my life, so stay out of it ( Read more... )

Sooo, wednesday was prob one of the best days/nights I've had in a REALLY long time. Totally a mind fuck though which REALLY sucks but what are you gonna do...people are confused and theres nothing I can do to change that so i gotta just take it in strides. We stayed out all night, it started at Jes's house, we got trashed, then went to millers, ( Read more... )

Today I'm going to outback to claim my job lol. I cant believe its already thanksgiving. To think just last year I was still friends with Jesse and spent thanksgiving with him, what up to friends not giving a fuck about the nice things you do for them! Holllaaaaaa. Weirdddddd. I feel like...Im ok. Get it? Maybe not. Just a lil bored with life right ( Read more... )

fuck it. i was wrong as always. happiness is not meant for me period.

Sooooo i've been seeing someone and wowwwww. Like yesss haha. He is amazing. Hes so silly and strange and fun. Its so weird cause like, guys dont listen ya know? And he actually listens to what I have to say and waits to hear what I have to say. Its not like pretending to listen so that he can talk, he is compassionate and cares and has a big heart ( Read more... )

open your eyes,
your wasting your lives
its now life or death
snorting oxys or meth
pinned down or black pennies
tears, here they're plenty
i'm walking in this half life cememtary
looking in the holes where my friends are half buried
its appropriate the signs all around
cause this, my friend, is a dead end town.

so i guess the first thing i should say is ray is dead. just like i always predicted he would be. i read the eulogy. things were just so strange. Erik didnt come to the funeral, he was like, the one person that I needed to help me cope, he spent the most time with me and ray especially recently. God i'm just so disappointed. all the people closest ( Read more... )

life is so confusing. I'm trying to get all my shit back on track because i had to stray from my plans and now i'm stuck at a dead end and I cant seem to tell which way is out. I talked to John and he's willing to work with me again and I'm SUPER excited about that, this time, NO FUCKING UP. I miss acting so much and i have to get back in it if I ( Read more... )

I'm soooooo doing me right now and I'm lovin it. People are crazy and I'm learning that more day by day. I can't trust anyone except myself and a few good friends. I'm no one's puppet. I do what I want to do. Don't be fooled just because that maybe what you want too. Silly boys.

*Jessieandthemischeivousfeeling*