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Heavy Lifting This Grief
It's been 7 years since I've made an entry but today felt like the right time.
In April of 2004 I began a long distance relationship with someone I met through Livejournal. We didn't hesitate with our feelings and by September, I'd moved to Olympia to continue our relationship and start school at Evergreen.
Heather and I had adventures, laughter, ( Read more... ) -
Long Time, No See
It's been 3 years since I've written in this thing. Nowadays, I look through my archive of entries and cringe at some of the stuff I've posted. You know, for fun. I like to look at who I was then compared to who I am now. So, if you're not friends with me on Facebook or Instagram (the_jamesiest) or if you don't read my wordpress, let's re-cap the ( Read more... ) -
When The Panic Sets In
"The English language needs a word for wanting to be dead. Not for wanting to kill yourself; it has a word for that. But I don’t get suicidal. I spend no time writing farewell notes or considering alternative plans to ending it all. I don’t want to kill myself. I just want to be dead, desperately, because it is terrifying to reside inside my own ( Read more... ) -
Moving On
I've had this journal for 13 years and I'm not sure what to do with it. I've been doing a lot of writing over at my wordpress blog which I originally started for NaNoWriMo. The question I keep asking myself is why when I have this perfectly good journal right here do I continue to make posts in my wordpress blog? I'm sure there are a lot of valid ( Read more... ) -
Quick and Dirty
1. On the night of November 30th I got arrested and given a DUI. I didn't hit anything or anyone. It could have been a million times worse. The handcuffs did hurt a little though.
2. I had a week long panic attack. I'm way better now. Way way better. Therapy and new meds and not drinking for a while has helped a lot. It's been 34 days since I've ( Read more... ) -
New Beginning
My name is James and I’m an addict. Money is my drug of choice. When I have it, I spend most of it on things that are unnecessary. When I don’t have enough of it, I hate myself for my spending habits. Bills are piling up and it’s my own fault. My issues with money have hurt my relationship with friends, family, and my business is suffering. It’s ( Read more... ) -
Sad Things That Will One Day Turn Into Happy Things
After a lot of discussion/crying/emotional exhaustion, Will and I have decided to live apart for a while. We both need to work on things without enabling the same awful behavior patterns in each other. As much as it hurts, I know that we need this space and I know that I'm willing to do anything to make this work. I'm not sure where we'll both move ( Read more... ) -
What a novel idea!
So, I'm doing NANOWRIMO this year and if you wanna give me feedback on my progress, here's where you can do that:
http://impatienthands.wordpress.com
There only two posts so-far so not much catching up to do.
Also, Will and I are both sick right now. I got a bad cold and then he got ( Read more... ) -
Woe is me
Business is better, but not amazing (yet). I received a bunch of donations which helped out a lot. The summer is winding down which will bring back clients who take a hiatus until the school year. Will starts his last year of nursing school later this month and will soon be a legit nurse. The dogs are good, the cats are good, the weather is mostly ( Read more... ) -
Help!
So, business is crazy right now. The summer has brought on a decrease in clients which means less income. Less income means lots of anxiety. Here's a way you can help! http://www.gofundme.com/3cb3zw. Anything would be greatly appreciated. Also, Sunday is my birthday and this would be a ( Read more... )