im excited i have realized that just because i have a plan for my life when i get older doesnt mean i shouldnt have one for now. i have come to the conclusion after watching and reasching others break ups and how/or if the get back together as well with the recent information that i have discovered i do have a chance. and i have concluded that this ( Read more... )

In the end love is the greatest gift and closest to freedom ( Read more... )

i remember that days when he loved me. when i knew no matter what the day couldnt get anyworse because atleast i knew i had him by my side. lately i have no idea what to do anymore. i just feel like im losing him so fast and its just so horrible. i love him more than any one in this entire world. i hope with all my heart that maybe one day things ( Read more... )

everything is wrong while at the same time i wouldnt ask for anything to be different. nothing is positive in my life. nothing is negitive. i live my life day by day. i thought i had everything and no cares. if anything i thought i had enough cares to make all my wories go away. but after i already got rid of them i realized i used a fake ( Read more... )

ok so i havent updated in a long time and im not here to tell anyone about my life nothing new got a job lost a job did some of this did some of that. the reason for this update is im fucking horny i want a guy ok so if you are interested and not ugly im me: zanekaren
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im sick of this. this tree that i have planted. planted in soil full of lies. i was to believe that by doing so everything that i was to dream of having would be mine. now i sit here. tired. sick. worn out. this life is nothing. nothing to hold onto . nothing to call real. nothing to mine. i offered you gold and now you wolnt even answer. i have ( Read more... )

2004 in a freakishly simular patern ( Read more... )

i have gone from suicidal tears to a killing glare. you tricked me into this but you are right. you are not my fucking friend. as i try to stand alone with the selfconfidence of knowing that it is truely i who is standing here; you constantly tell me that i am not old enough.simultaniously cutting my trunk from under. so with your final cut down; ( Read more... )

i though you were my safe house. the one place in this fucked up world that i could turn to. as i left my closet of unwanted secrets and finally came out to you i thought thinking about your reaction would be to much to worry about. instead i feel as if you are ashamed. i feel as if you are ashamed of who i am. instead of embracing it you want me ( Read more... )

all i want is a boyfriend. someone who isnt fat. or chubby. plump or stocky. either skinny or in shape. perferably emo. who wears eyeliner. tight pants. smokes cigarrets. or not but doesnt have a problem with a guy who does. nobody over 25 but preferably my age. if your out there im me zanemuse. or call me 4072279735. if anybody can help me i will ( Read more... )