i am upset at myself. i am not using my time wisley. i am becoming a useless piece of person. im not using my time to do good things. things for me or anyone else. i am not a good person. anymore....or was i ever. ive become addicted to the computer. and to sickening myspace. i am upset because i cant say what i want to to the people i want to. i ( Read more... )

i lied i am not feeling good in 2006. so far it has sucked so much. stupid micheal. i feel like im losing him again. wowy does that hurt....

i feel super duper in 2006. wow! actually no. i dont. well then...i am going to the mall today i wanna get new vans slippys. hmmm. i havent gotten new shoes in forever.

thats cool

well i am gunna go now because this is pointless.

im getting drunk right now. by myself. wow. im fun.

im back. i had lots of fun. i met these two boys named johny and stefan, there cool cool cool. we all went to the grossmont mall...i think thats what its called. and we were in sports athority playing horse. i won ( Read more... )

so...im going to sandiego with hana for tell friday. im excited. im gunna get to meet all her cool people friends. i get to see who she is always telling me about. but im mostly excited to leave carlsbad. fucking carlsbad. fucking people. idk. its all good. im suprised my mom is letting me go. ie asked her a lot of different times but she always ( Read more... )

i miss him so much, i hate thinking about him all the time. it hurts to want him. it hurts more than anything in the world.

im at my moms work. she has an eye problem. she just told me she is fearing she is getting diabities. it runs in her family. and she has some of the symptoms. that scares me.

i have the flu. a blanket my brother used while he had the flu got me sick....i hate my brother and his blanket. more than anything in the world. damn it all to hell. its two days tell christmas and i have the flu. SHIT!

i feel like fucking cinderella. my brother is the master. "ooops i broke a glass GO CLEAN IT UP SHANNON ( Read more... )