Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I have been crazily busy! :) Anyway, things have been going well for me for the most part. Let's see. Well, Thursday I did my eating therapeutic assignment and it went fairly well. I mean, yeah it was hard of course and just sitting on the bathroom floor after finishing eating was really hard because I wanted to ( Read more... )

Hello all, I am back from my freezing cold camping trip in UT, yeah Bryce Canyon in September, beautiful but COLD!!!  So now I am back with a new theraputic assignment that I have to do tomorrow and I'm really nervous about.  Basically I have to eat something I never would have eaten when I was doing eating disorder stuff in a place that normally ( Read more... )

Why am I such a freaking mess?!?!?!?!?  I just don't know what is up with me and I just want to scream. ((Sits in corner and crys and hits head against the wall.)) I go back to Utah tomorrow and I am so scared. I'm scared they might tell me that I can't go home yet, that October 13th isn't going to work after all. That I'm a screw up, that I need ( Read more... )

Ugh, I can't take this.  I go to "support sites" because I'm struggling and end up just getting way more triggered.  Ugh!!!!!  It is SOOOO frustrating.  I just don't know what to do, who to talk to, where to go, what to say.  My family doesn't get it.  It all just scares them and they worry that I'm "falling back into old patterns."  ((sigh, scream ( Read more... )

Hello all. Yeah, as you can probably see by the little mood thing I'm a little bit of a mess right now which is really frustrating. I just don't know what to do I guess. Let me start from the beginning, because this probably makes no sense. So, yesterday I stayed busy and did a lot that I had been wanting to do and things and it just didn't end ( Read more... )

Hello all!!!!
     Hi, I'm in Texas right now.  I go back to Utah on Friday and then I fly back to Texas on Tuesday and I will be here for a week, then I will go back to Utah for 2 and a half weeks ans then I come home for good on Friday, October 13; it's a good thing I'm not superstitious :).  So yeah, I'm really excited to come home, I am soooo ( Read more... )

Hello all, I'm alive which is probably a good thing (at least that is what I'm told).  So yeah, Cottonwood de Tucson was a good experience, it was hard because I miss everyone sooooo much, but it was good for me too.  But it wasn't enough, I'm still a mess like before, I just have a better understanding of my mess self I guess.  So, because I'm ( Read more... )

Well, I know I've not updated in a while, that is because my mom has been extremely annoying and totally limited my computer time.  But I felt like I should write now in case this is goodbye and I didn't get a chance to tell someone.  So yeah me and my mom are driving to AZ (a 12 hour trip) tomorrow to check out a "facility" there called Cottonwood ( Read more... )

Sorry about that, I thought I had to leave, but I don't yet.  ((smiles))  So yeah, continuing from where I left off with my last post: Lezlie's house.  But before we went back after dinner we went to Barne's and Noble and she got Brokeback Mountain and another book by the same author called Postcards or something.  Then after she burned me the ( Read more... )

Sorry I didn't write yesterday, I thought about it at 2:30, but I just couldn't do anything at that point.  So I will attempt to catch up now.  Yesterday was quite the interesting mess.  I didn't end up going to Seminary (I stayed up until 3 and then just couldn't move, getting up is always rough for me), so I felt kind of bad about that.  I did go ( Read more... )