-
(Untitled)
Well, I survived. Yay! And Brother Kimball agrees with me that the thing in Houston is pretty ridiculous at this point in time. Thank goodness. He wants me to start getting more sleep (going to bed at 11) and exercise (at least 4 days a week) and he wants me to just kind of drop something, or let things slide, basically just not put as much ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I have a meeting with Brother Kimball in a few minutes ((bites fingernails)). Yeah, I'm really nervous. I really never know what to expect with his meetings. It is hard. I'm nervous because he is going to read my journal and I really don't want him to agree with my parents, and I'm just scared in general. Well, I really have to go. I'll tell ( Read more... ) -
At home
Well, I did it. I skipped school for the first time in my life that I was not sick. It is really weird because I feel like I should be at school, but at the same time it is really a relief, I don't know that I could handle school at the moment. Maybe I'll be able to get some things in order today, probably not, but I can dream and attempt to be ( Read more... ) -
Totally Terrified and Freaking Out
Oh my gosh, I don't even know where to begin. Well, I guess I will start by saying that today has been rather rough. I have not accomplished anything and it is eating me alive, but I just don't have the energy. My mom came home from work at about 2:30-3:00 and said that we were going to go out together and basically just get away and have a good ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I am in a really bad mood and really a mess so this is bound to be rather depressing, just to forewarn you now.
I just don't want to do anything anymore. I just want to die, and I have felt that way for days, but I hadn't really thought about or felt like I could kill myself, whereas today I am thinking about it and really do want it. It is ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Well, I failed once again, surprise surprise. I didn't get any more of my essays done. I started one, but I just can't do it. I'm really a mess and I just want to give up. I feel bad. I've let my parents down once again. Now I'll have to do it later and hope it all works out still. It probably won't happen tomorrow though because I have an ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I'm attempting to do these essays and totally failing, I'm way to easily distracted. I'm listening to "Falling In Love" by Falling Up and it makes me think of Alicia so much. The words are just all so pertinent. I love her and miss her so so much. Here are the lyrics: (aren't they beautiful ( Read more... ) -
Essays
One down, three to go. At least the "most important" one is done now. I really don't like college applications, they are rather annoying. Not to mention the fact that they have ridiculous word limits. I mean, how do they really expect you to say anything meaningful in a mere 300 words. Ugh, oh well. I guess I will just have to deal with it ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Today has been pretty rough. It took me over a half an hour to get up this morning. I just couldn't move. I literally felt like I was at the bottom of a deep pit with boulders on top of me and gravity continually increasing and there was nothing I could do about it. Needless to say I was late to church, which made me feel bad. I have just felt ( Read more... )