I couldn't focus on a damned thing today as far as HW was concerned... and my second class even got canceled. There wasn't any power in half of SCC today. It was retarded. Chris, Tiffany, & I went to Subway for lunch b/c the cafeteria was closed. I had actually packed my lunch this morning and had managed to get to school a little early and find a ( Read more... )

I'm so thankful to have a job that I love and that is so distracting while I'm there that I barely have time to think of Carlin at all ( Read more... )

I have this anxious achey feeling in my stomach.

Right now, frankly, I hate Carlin just as much as I love him and I can't stand this. I kind of feel like dying inside. I'm too angry too sleep... which is bad b/c that's what I do when I'm angry. I can't cry, but I want to sooo bad. I want to scream and cry and do everything in my power to get rid of ( Read more... )

I just thought I'd be random and put some things on here that made me chuckle.


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I would like to reiterate the fact that my other journal is FAKE!!!

Someone *coughCOFFEYcough* never got the memo that it was a fake journal that was made in order to psych my dad out, and thought that I had actually contemplated suicide. No. I love life, and even if I wanted to committ suicide, I'm too afraid of pain to kill myself. I am a firm ( Read more... )

I'M NOT DROPPING OUT PEOPLE!!! GEEZ!!!!

That whole thing about me understanding why people drop out, was merely me sympathizing with those who already have dropped out. No, I'm not dropping out. I plan on wearing the grape costume and walking across the stage and receiving my diploma. I've dreamt of that day since I was little. Why come this far ( Read more... )

So, my cousin and I got into a really good conversation about family and stuff tonight. ...The beginning was very amusing though. I'll share that part. The other part I'll keep to myself.

shanes new sn11: hey
AmyFan100: hi shaner
shanes new sn11: whats up
AmyFan100: n2m u
shanes new sn11: getting tired
AmyFan100: yeah, i'm gettin there too. I'm ( Read more... )

And in this moment I am happy.

Last night Carlin definetly said something that I won't ever, EVER forget. "Kissing you is like making love to your lips. Your kiss is so passionate!" Definate cute points there.

Anyway, crap. Every time I try to sit down to write in here, something comes up and I gotta go.

It's time for dinner.

"I Miss You" 
by Incubus

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?

I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days ( Read more... )

Someone really should sue Disney for making every girl believe that they have a prince charming b/c my prince turned into a fucking frog today.

It was over something REALLY stupid too. I'd feel horribly stupid telling everyone about it, so I think I'll keep it to myself, thanks.

Is banging one's head into a brick wall a form of poetry? No? I wish ( Read more... )