oh my goodness its been so freaking loongg. but i'm feeling obligated to write- not exactly all from the heart i'll admit. i'm running on 2 hours of sleep thanks to the history road trip project... hurting. feeling good because i went and got my back fixed this afternoon. she legit rolled me up and jumped on me, my whole body cracked, and suddenly ( Read more... )

i think i'm realizing vulnerability can eat away at you. doubt is rooted within it. and the overall results of this sticky chaos is disgusting. i hate when things get screwed up, and more importantly, when people get screwed over. i hate that he still gives me butterflies. And no longer to i have a choice in the matter ( Read more... )

tequila makes her clothes fall off...

death is surreal
evolking a numbness and a nausea i'm not sure how to handle
my eyes are quivering

it makes me laugh.
i'm at the point where i'm so tired.
i cant sleep.
and then i'm a hysterical mess between laughing and crying.
CHEYEAH BOII.
...the other day someone said i was "gangsta".
life dream accomplished?
i'm thinking yes.
<3

i'll stop while i'm ahead.

i'm on adrenaline.
i'm still flying high.
it was crazy.
i never do crazy things.
and i'm happy.
i love it.
...
and dont worry. i wont get too used to it.
responsibility is key.

or so they say.

it boils down to this.
people cant be trusted.
i think i'm going to delete my livejournal, unless i'm convinced otherwise.
because if you put something on private, its MY feelings and they arent meant to be shared or exploited.
i dont want to bash people through this because theres no tone or anything.
whatever.
fuck this.

wow i have the worst PMS i've had in a century ( Read more... )

Your Love Element Is Fire
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wow.
i realized something that i desperately need in relationships.
consistancy and reliance.
i love that i can rely on him.
it makes me feel so...

safe.