Sometimes life is so confusing, why cant everything just be simple. Not knowing what to do with your life sucks. All the days seem to all run together being one big fucking mess.

Wow, almost forgot i had one of these things being so busy with school and working all the time. Almost brings me back to high school in a weird way. But lets be happy thats over. ive been so busy lately that i dont have time for anything or any one with is a shame.

Finally have a good day wasnt sad but for 10 minutes yesterday. was amazing, from the time i woke up til the time i went to dead i was in an amazing mood. must have been all the electric six and Fuck.. Ass.

i dont even know why i update this fucking thing no one ever comments back. FUCK im such a loser

today is my birthday and i am doing nothing because my dad wont let me use my car. i am basicaly grounded on my birthday. this is shity. summer is over, school tomorrow. just want to get this year over as soon as possible. Cant wait to go back to texas next years. then i dont have to deal with this bull shit. Fuck.

life has been so stressful since 3 weeks ago. what the fuck is wrong with me why cant i get over it. going back to school is going to make everything worse. but maybe it wont be. hopefully something good will come from this year. we'll see.

WHAT AM I DOING. I HAVE NO IDEAL. DOING THINGS NOT NOT BECAUSE THEY ARE FUN TO ME JUST TRYING TO TO FEEL SOMETHING. NOT REALLY MYSELF. BEING A SLUT. IDK. DO YOU KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME. MAYBE SOME INSECURITIES.

I am so fucking excited Talon is driving all the way from Texas to see me in a few weeks. Its going to be amazing. I cant fucking wait.

why do i always let people get to close to me. i mean what is so wrong with me all i do is try and be the best girlfriend i can be and do what ever it takes to make the other person happy. i guess i just shouldn't be in a relationship. its just doesn't work

i cant find anybody to go with me to the vette show tomorrow, i am gonna have to drive all by myself. this sucks. but if any one wants to go with me its tomorrow but early im going to leave probalaly alittle after 10. so if you want to go give me a call.